February Windrose mingle

[passingthrough]

Who: Windrose crew and the people who visit them
Broadcast: N/A
Action: Windrose
When: February

[Busy month for the Windrose. They set off a string of glitches by tinkering with found tech. They've lost another captain with Wrath's disappearance though Officer Snuggles remained behind. Misty transferred and Kitty was promoted and that's just the first half of the month. Some of these things aren't official until tomorrow's shuffle.

More importantly, who is going to turn everything pink and glittery for Valentine's Day with Wrath gone?]

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[passingthrough]

[The fingers in her hair feel soooo good.] Think you can get Kirk to give up his room?

[winn]

Not a chance.

[ he doesn't sound broken up about it. he'll live in a tin can if it means keeping jim around. ]

[passingthrough]

We could just switch all your stuff one day and see if he notices.

[winn]

No way, the risk of my stuff going out an airlock is too real.

[passingthrough]

Okay, okay, but this is the best bed. [She nuzzles up against him, so comfortable.]

[winn]

[ he kisses the top of her head ]

I love you, I love this bed, I'm not moving.

[passingthrough]

It's like we had a threesome. [Laughing lightly.] Definitely not something I ever saw us doing.

[winn]

For the record, big bed's the only threesome I'm game for.

[ what, after the surprise he found in her locker it feels like he should be clear about things like that. ]

[passingthrough]

Duly noted and agreed. I'm more into full on orgies anyway.

[winn]

I can make do with just the bed.

[passingthrough]

Heeeeey. [Kissing.] You're stuck with me. Don't do anything weird with my bed without me.

[winn]

Couldn't if I tried, you bring the weird.

[passingthrough]

We all have our jobs. [Kissing again and then she just smiles, looking at him and knowing she should probably push a little even if it will mean less of this for a bit.]

So, before you distracted me with mind blowing sex...I think were inadvertently admitting to having some concerns with your identity.

[winn]

[ he flops back in bed, his hand falling out of her hair with frustrated grumble. ]

I'm in love with you, what does it matter? [ he's not going to do anything about it, so why put himself through this? ]

[passingthrough]

Because I know how hard it is having a part of yourself you want to deny. Something that scares you or you resent, but it's still always with you even if you're trying to ignore it. [She switches with him, stroking his hair instead.] I love you, and I don't want that for you. I don't really want it for anyone.

[winn]

Kitty it's not exactly a mutant power I don't need to learn to control it and I can't make anyone's life any better with it.

[ it feels like all that could come of doing what she's asking him to is pain, fear, and worry. doesn't he have enough of those in his life? ]

[passingthrough]

I didn't need to accept my mutant power so I could control it. I mean...that was also important, but my point is I needed to do it so I could accept myself. I hated myself. I was afraid I was a monster.

I know it's not a one to one comparison and believe me I'm not asking you to ask out cute boys. You're mine. [Which she says in a loving way, not a possessive one.]

I just want you to be able to feel comfortable as yourself. Your whole self.

[winn]

I know I'm not a monster.

[ but the way he stiffens at ask out cute boys reveals just how right she is. he's not comfortable with himself, not even close. ]

[passingthrough]

How do you feel? [Hoping for a real answer here. Not another brush off.]

[winn]

Honestly? Annoyed.

[ he doesn't want to deal with this. the only thing keeping him still in bed is that fact that he knows kitty will overreact if he got up and left. he doesn't want to hurt her, but he doesn't want to be here right now, either. ]

[passingthrough]

[Softly.] Winn. [She rests her head against his chest, feeling a little defeated, but also just worried for him that he'd rather push her away than talk about this part of him. How much is he hurting?]

[winn]

[ she was envious of jim, well, this is what jim deals with. ]

What, what do you want from me, Kitty? [ frustration and annoyance are defense mechanisms he's tried to keep from using with her, but when she pokes at his open wounds they automatically deploy. ]

[passingthrough]

I want you to feel safe with me. I know this is hard for you. I wouldn't care so much if I didn't know that. And I want to do right by you which is more of a me thing than a you thing. [But this isn't something she's ever had to deal with directly and so as much as she can relate it to her mutation it's not exactly the same and these waters are uncharted and she doesn't want to make things worse. He's too important.]

[winn]

I used to.

[ now it feels like he's under attack, like he has to deal with it or it will keep being thrown in his face. and even if it won't, he'll always be wondering if she's thinking about it, if she's disappointed in him, if she thinks he's pathetic for now owning up to it.

all he wanted to do was make her feel safe and loved while she was glitched. why did it have to turn into anything more? ]

[passingthrough]

[Never jealous of Kirk again. That hurt. That hurt a lot. She shifts to look in his eyes even though the response makes her want to hide away instead.] There is no one more important to me than you. The last thing I ever want to do is hurt you. [Oh, god she's going to cry. Don't cry. Don't cry. Don't make this about you, Pryde.] What do you need from me?