06 - video

[winn]

Who: Winn Schott and you
Broadcast: Video
Action: Tourist
When: Friday

[ there's something off about winn when the feed turns on. something different from all his other broadcasts. it may take a second to spot it but once you realize what it is it becomes glaringly obvious: there's not a hint of happiness anywhere on his face. his eyes, his lips, his nose, it looks like every last bit of joy has been drained from his features, so even when his lips do stretch lightly upwards, despite his dry eyes it feels more like watching him sob than seeing him smile. ]

Margaery's gone home. [ he has no way of knowing that. she could have been kidnapped to another world, one where she would have no protective big brother to introduce her to superheroes and feminism, to embroider with her and teach her science. but he chooses to hang onto that thought, to believe that she's gone back to the family he knows she so desperately missed despite never letting her pain show. he clears his throat. ] If any of her friends wanna come by for a toast and some stories, I'll be on the Tourist all day.

[ he has been on the tourist since he realized she disappeared, curled up in his bed, shut down. this is the most he's said since, and it feels almost like an outer body experience. he clears his throat again, and nods at the camera before killing the feed. ]

Comments

[winn]

[ some of it's definitely fear of being more trouble than he's worth. he's still afraid of being sad around people, of being an inconvenience, of being not fun. ]

I love you too. [ if someday he'll have to say final words to her - let them at least be those. ]

[passingthrough]

[She very much wants a forever with him instead of a farewell. Odds have to be in favor of that eventually, right?]

Then we're both pretty lucky. [She kisses the corner of his mouth.]

[winn]

[ he does everything in his power to help those odds along. ]

It's more than pretty lucky. Us even meeting was so unlikely, and falling in love...[ with all the shit they both carry, the stars had to align and synchronize-dance for it all to happen the way it did. ] If I used up all my luck on this, it's worth it.

[passingthrough]

You say some pretty romantic things even when you're sad. [She rests her forehead on his.] I feel the same way about you. Always. No matter what rhymes with mad.

[winn]

I just need you to know how much I love you.

[ has he ever said it to margaery? he's not sure. even if he did, he didn't say it enough. ] Even when I'm sad.

[passingthrough]

I do. I also never get tired of hearing it, so thank you. I want to spend my life with you. Good, bad, and everything in between.

[winn]

Me too.

[ he sniffles and nods. ]

[passingthrough]

I feel like this is where I sing to you, but I can't think of any songs.

[winn]

[ he kisses her gently and curls up against her again. ]

Sleep on it? [ because that's all he's been having the energy for. maybe, just maybe, when he wakes up this time he'll be able to joke sing her something. ]

[passingthrough]

Anything for you. [She's not really tired but she's comfortable. And on the plus side at least Winn is getting a break? A terrible one, but he gets more sleep at least.]

[winn]

[ misery is exhausting, he's definitely getting the most sleep he's had since...being in a coma, if that counts.

gently kissing her forehead, he lets his eyes flicker shut again. ]