let's just ramp up that confusion

[musicalhost]

Who: Ezri Dax
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action:N/A unless you're on he Marsiva
When: Now

[It's starts with a young woman rolling off the bed, short hair messy and a starfleet uniform, if you'll recognize the style uniform she wears, a bit wrinkled. And, if anyone has met one, her Trill spots are very noticeable right now. She's fairly groggy yet as she wakes up and pulls herself to her feet.]

Hello? [Where... is she?] Julian? Ben? ... Kira? [Anyone?

Give her a few moments, she eventually realizes she's broadcasting.]

Hello, I'm Curz- Emon- uh... [Ughh, she rubs at her eyes and ruffles at her hair, trying to fully wake herself up.] I'm Dax. Ezri Dax, Lieutenant Junior Grade, I'm the counselor on Deep Space Nine in orbit of Bajor.

Comments

[musicalhost]

Captain Janeway? The Voyager? I thought Voyager was lost-

[She has to keep in mind, other realities. Time travel. Jadzia had experienced them before.] So she probably knew Jadzia or Curzon. Yes, I am the same Dax though.

[candothat]

It was, yes, but I was in another universe for some time with her and members of her crew. [Chakotay was a good space dad. He misses that guy a lot.]

I'm not sure... we were discussing the concept as it relates to individual identity more than Dax specifically. Ah--I promise not to bother you with many existential questions, at least not so soon.

[musicalhost]

They're all okay still? There have been messages, once or twice, but contact with the Delta Quadrant is almost impossible. {Ezri hadn't even graduated the academy yet when they were lost.]

You wouldn't bother me too much though. I do appreciate that though, give us both a chance to settle. My identity crisis will be around for a few years probably.

[candothat]

They were doing well enough when I spoke with them, although I don't think that Captain Janeway would have told me if things were going poorly. Ensign Kim would have, I believe. I know that he was frustrated with their lack of progress.

Why are you having an identity crisis? Is it a common side effect of being a host? [a beat] Those are rude questions, there's no need to answer them.

[musicalhost]

I wish I could pass that on to Starfleet. It's good to know they're doing alright though. I appreciate that. [Maybe they'll find a way to send messages home too.]

It's not rude, it's okay. [okay maybe it is a little? But Ezri also can't hide it too well.] It is sometimes but most Trill spend years preparing to be joined and hoping to be selected. I never wanted to be joined and got a fifteen minute lecture from the ships surgeon before it happened. And he wasn't even a Trill.

[candothat]

Of course. I'm glad that there are people in their time who are concerned about them. [Chekov doesn't count. Wrong time, wrong universe.]

I'm sorry, Ezri. That is not enough time for any significant life change, even the kind that don't threaten identity.

[musicalhost]

Everyone has been worried. We thought they were gone for the longest time.

[She gives a tired little smile.] No but it was my choice. The captain said she wouldn't order me, I had to decide. I chose Dax.

[candothat]

They will get home eventually. Janeway is one of the most brilliant people I have ever had the opportunity to meet... she can find a way.

Regardless... [Since she's fine with it, though, he has no reason to not be.] I hope that Dax is appreciative.

[musicalhost]

In my experience, most captains in the fleet are.

[And she is. The idea had terrified her before joining, the possibility of losing who she is as a person, but now? It's kind of nice having experiences like Dax's to draw on.] I think it is.

[candothat]

Yes, of course! Please don't tell Kirk that I so much as implied otherwise. But Captain Janeway... I have never met a command officer who was so knowledgeable about astrophysics and quantum physics.

Good... and if you think that it would be helpful to talk about this existential crisis ever, I can listen. Not that you would know by how much I have been talking, but I promise I can.

[musicalhost]

I won't breathe a word.

I'll remember that. I don't know how much talking will help but it'll be good to have someone to talk to if I ever get lost in someones memories, remind me who I am.

[candothat]

I will make myself readily available for such reminders.

Ezri... may I ask how old you are? You don't need to tell me--please ignore me if I annoy you, I wouldn't take offense--but you seem young for a lieutenant. [Not that he should be accusing anyone of being young.]

[musicalhost]

You don't annoy me. I have two brothers, it's hard to annoy me, but I'm twenty-one. I actually only got promoted because Ben pulled some strings for me to skip the last of my training. After all "what could you learn in the next few months that you haven't learned in the last three hundred years."

[candothat]

This seems like a legitimate reason to skip some of your training. Were you never an ensign?

[musicalhost]

I was, while I was training on the Destiny. Since it was all I had left before graduating the academy. I guess being counselor on DS9 and being a Dax was enough for that much of a promotion.