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driftfleet2015-03-27 01:15 pm
killedwithlove) wrote in driftfleet2015-03-27 01:15 pm
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Video 01
Who: Cole and anyone
Broadcast: Fleet-wide
Action: Marvisa
When: Now until the next shuffle?
[Cole doesn't usually sleep, so waking up is very unfamiliar. He doesn't usually feel the cold or heat much, so the deep coldness in his bones is alien.
He jerks upright with a gasp, hands scrabbling at the back of his neck and then he vanishes in a puff of black-green smoke and reappears in the corner of the room, pressing himself back into it, staring around with wide eyes.]
Whispering, watchful, wakeful, wondering, where?
[He then spends a while patting things around him like the floor and wall, whispering under his breath.
In all honesty, he'll stay in that room until someone convinces him to leave and go elsewhere. It's not like he has to leave for any reason.]
Broadcast: Fleet-wide
Action: Marvisa
When: Now until the next shuffle?
[Cole doesn't usually sleep, so waking up is very unfamiliar. He doesn't usually feel the cold or heat much, so the deep coldness in his bones is alien.
He jerks upright with a gasp, hands scrabbling at the back of his neck and then he vanishes in a puff of black-green smoke and reappears in the corner of the room, pressing himself back into it, staring around with wide eyes.]
Whispering, watchful, wakeful, wondering, where?
[He then spends a while patting things around him like the floor and wall, whispering under his breath.
In all honesty, he'll stay in that room until someone convinces him to leave and go elsewhere. It's not like he has to leave for any reason.]
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I don't have my knives or armour. I don't know if I need them.
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[He smiles, a bit tiredly.]
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And I'll avoid your friend. I don't want to upset him.
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[Dorian knew there was a depth of sorrow in Fenris, and doubted that even Cole could fix it. If anything, it would probably only upset him.]
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I don't want to make him hurt more. He said I'd hurt Varric if I mentioned Bianca.
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[He's not even eager to discuss the subject of his father, still. This past week has reminded him entirely too much of that situation, and the less he can think about it, the better.
No doubt his father would think less of him, for what has happened, with Fenris. The relationship is an odd one, like a strange balance between who they are, here, and who they were under the shadow of Tevinter. Both of them trying to eke out what life they can have here before the other vanishes for good.
Like living on borrowed time, and making what they can out of it.]
I don't know that I can explain it to you. Just...he'll come around, in time. If someone like myself can win him over, no doubt you can.
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[He's still a bit lost on some things, don't worry about that.]
If I make him hurt and angry, I can stay away from him. I don't want to make more hurt. For either of you.
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[He sighs, chuckling softly.]
You're quite right on that, Cole.
[And then he thinks it over, weighing it, and he nods a bit.]
There are some hurts that can't be helped, Cole. Sometimes trying to help them only makes it worse.
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[It's the best he can offer.]
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[Dorian knew he carried enough hurt in him.]
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It's not like that. Whoever needs me more is loudest.
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[He nods softly.]
We will speak again, soon, hopefully.
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I'll visit when I can.