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[moseyin]

D o any of you ever wonder if your world would be better off without you
?

not like
dying or something back home, but. If you just never went back

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[moseyin]

Do whatever the hell you want no matter what other people think

that's probably a good motto to live by. don't get far doing what other people think.

[reluctantbastard]

That's not what I mean, actually. It was more about me having the confidence to do what I think is right without second-guessing myself because what if other people don't agree. I know it sounds strange, but it was difficult for me to realize that until she came along.

It's about having confidence in yourself. And she gives me that. That's how I found my place in the world.

[moseyin]

That isnt difficult to believe at all

but its a lot easier to hear and say than it is to do it

[reluctantbastard]

Yeah, you're telling me. I had to be declared king of my country and have my half-sister disown me before I got the message.

I hope it doesn't take those sort of drastic measures for you.

[moseyin]

No buddy dont worry I dont think thats something Ill have to worry about

[reluctantbastard]

Well, it's definitely not something I would wish on anyone. Can I...

Is there a reason you're asking about this sort of thing?

[moseyin]

Cause Im trying to figure out if Im ever gonna go home

If we even get a choice in the end I guess

Its hard to pick which people you wanna abandon, yknow

[reluctantbastard]

From what I understand, we don't have much choice. Our departure is as much up to our captors as our arrival.

But I do understand what you mean. Do I abandon my country or do I stay here with people I might not have the chance to meet back home?

[moseyin]

Or people you wont see again once you go back home

[reluctantbastard]

There are some people like that for me too, so I get the reluctance.

But, I have a question for you. Is there anyone back where you're from that would miss you if you never returned?

[moseyin]

Yeah a few which is why Im still not sure

If we do ever get a choice I dont want to make one in the heat of the moment

[reluctantbastard]

You can attempt to plan for every outcome. Still, when you're in that moment, you have to make the choice that's best for you. No one else can do that.

Asking for advice now is all well and good, but it's hard when we're talking hypotheticals. You're the only person who can make that choice in the end.

[moseyin]

Yeah yeah, I know I get it

Im not looking to be told what to do Im just
I dunno just talking aloud

[reluctantbastard]

So, not looking for advice. Just trying to get your thoughts in order before you try to do something yourself, I take it.

I've been there. It's not easy, but I think you'll be able to make the choice that's right for you if it comes down to it.

[moseyin]

Yeah thanks doc

Sorry to hear your life sucked for a while but heres to it not sucking anymore

[reluctantbastard]

You know, someone told me something a while ago that I thought was a bunch of bull until I thought about it. After I was removed a bit from the crappiness that my life was before I met my wife.

What they said was "when it's better, the bad won't matter as much". So, something to keep in mind.

[moseyin]

Yeah look no offense but thats just seriously so lip servicey

[reluctantbastard]

I thought that at the time. But even bad stuff has to stop at SOME point.

[moseyin]

Are you kidding me man

You ever heard of a story where someone gets shit thrown at them nonstop and then dies

[reluctantbastard]

Sure. It's called life. But I'm proof that even sometimes the crap has to stop.

[moseyin]

Good for you

[reluctantbastard]

Have you ever considered that it's your attitude that's tainting everything to look bleak? Something good has to have happened in your life. At least once.