action and video.

[rebuildyourruins]

Who: Thor + you
Broadcast: yes, video
Action: First Breath and Blue Fish
When: January 3rd - 4th

closed to Natasha.

[It takes some time for Thor to calm down enough from the shock of his memories to even think about what to do next. He had effectively chosen one thing of importance - Loki - and firmly shoved everything else to the side for hours. To take stock of the rest of it, look his own glaring mistakes in the face, was too much for him at the outset. But Thor isn't selfish at heart. There's only so long he can take focusing on himself before his mind turns to others.

He has to review what he knows from those last shattering moments on Earth with a grim objectivity before he gets in touch with the others. Once he does, it's easy enough to put together some of the pieces from his conversations with Natasha and know she's the one to call.

Not call exactly, but text.]

Can you meet me in the Space Bar?

[He briefly considers saying something else, bracing her for what he wants. There's no way he can think of to put that into text, though, so he doesn't. Once it's sent, he heads over to the Iskaulit to wait.]

action - first breath.

[Thor hadn't exactly been subtle when he came hurtling through the First Breath the night before, running straight through the ship in full battle armor before shutting himself in Loki's room. And that's where he stayed for a long time.

He does eventually come out though, rubbing tiredly at his face and heading into the kitchen. Thor's been here enough times to know where everything is. After a few moments of staring blankly at the countertops and cupboards, unreality threatening to unmoor him, he shakes himself and smacks the coffee pot onto the stove.

He'll be there for a while, drinking coffee at the bench and gazing vaguely at some fixed point on the wall. Still in full cape and mail sleeves. The bone-deep exhaustion in his face might have something to do with it.]

action - blue fish.

[Thor returns to his own ship during the day, knowing abstractly that the Fleet is due to depart this world soon. In the past he would prepare for this, restocking the food supplies and ensuring everything in the armory was locked back into place and accounted for. That was when the ship had more crew, and he hadn't yet become captain. Still, it needed to be done. Regardless of how unworthy he feels when he enters his own bedroom and sees the captain's bed in there.

Thor can be found stacking up crates in the cargo bay, checking through the fridges and freezers, and doing systems checks. Later on, he opts to sit on the top of the ship, watching the snow fall in silence.]

video.

[It's not the sudden reappearance of the short, jagged hair Thor used to sport or the incongruous brown eye where his eyepatch usually is that most dominates Thor's face when the video switches on. It's the weariness etched in hard lines all over him. There's no mistaking it, regardless of his otherwise composed demeanour. He merely nods at the camera before he starts, gruffer than usual.]

For those who knew her, Riona Cousland Theirin has left the Fleet. She was here for over three years, so I know she will be missed by many of us.

[There's a pause as though he might say more, but decides against it.]

The captaincy of the Blue Fish has fallen to me in her place. If you have any questions about that, you can bring them to me. [Thor shuts his eyes briefly, shaking his head.] Or... anything else.

[No doubt there might be some. He switches off the feed.]

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[ An alien looking cat makes his way in to the kitchen. He's usually more of a fixture around the ship but scarce until a good percentage of the ice was dealt with. The cat makes a sound as he notices Thor's presence, pausing in what was a trip to his water dish to look up at him.

Haggar's not too far behind, dressed in blue and white. Hard not to notice that Thor's been here regularly, if not visiting Taako than visiting Loki. She'd given him some acknowledgement in passing, given how often he was over lately, but they had never really spoken before.]

... Hello. Is the Captain resting, or does he have another guest?

[... There had been a lot more of those lately, too.]

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[The meow is what stirs Thor out of his reverie, blinking as he looks down at the cat. Both of them seem equally bemused to see each other there. His gaze travels up as Haggar appears behind the animal, with only some vague recognition. Thor has seen the woman around before, even prior to his more regular presence on the ship. Loki had once commented there was a witch aboard; he assumes this is she. He hadn't really given it much thought since then, especially not since coming aboard after the memories of home.

But now they're face to face, so his lack of knowledge about her is making itself well known. He nods by way of greeting, dragging his attention back to the present.]

He's resting, I believe. [Thor shakes his head, tipping the mug back and forth slightly in his hands.] Or at least I have seen no one else go to his room since I left.

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[The cat lightly flicks his tail, still studying Thor and distracted by the movement of the mug in his hands.]

Then let us hope he will not be disturbed, if he intends to rest for the time being.

[Haggar hadn't expected to greet him any further than that, but something about his general state gives her pause.]

... Should you not do the same?

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[Thor stares at Haggar for a moment, wondering at the question. He knows he looks bad. He's been told so by several people already. But he doesn't think sleep is going to solve that.]

I'm not doing anything right now.

[That's rest, surely.]

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... I suppose you are not.

[She doesn't know him well enough to really push the matter, though she studies him a moment further in some contemplation. Then she continues making her way over to the counters as if she hadn't paused, in search of the food that had been set aside for the cat.]

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[Good, then they agree. He rubs at his face for a moment, having another sip of his coffee. He probably does need some sleep, it just seems to elude him those times he goes to bed. A few hours here and there isn't much in the way of rest.

He watches Haggar for a moment as she putters around the kitchen before speaking up again.]

Are you the witch? Loki said there was one on this ship.

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[She's used to being referred to in that way, even if it gives her pause hearing it from a stranger.]

... yes, I am the witch.

[Even though she is noticeably not dressed like one.]

Although Lab Officer will suffice. Why do you ask?

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Because I wanted to check. I haven't heard much about you.

[It really was just the one conversation he had with Loki months ago. Thor's seen her in passing since, but didn't give much thought to it.]

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[She gives a slight shrug, finally locating the food set aside for the cat.]

Garnering fame has not been an interest of mine.

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[Huh. It's a wonder she's still on this ship, with Loki and Taako being as dramatic and showy as they are. It seems like a poor fit. Thor peers into his coffee mug once more, swilling the dregs around.]

I see. You prefer the sidelines.

[shroudedsecrets]

[An odd fit, but it... worked for them, somehow. She's not certain how much of her nature is preference and how much of it has been ingrained in her throughout her life for it to become so, so to that, she eases the subject towards him instead.]

Perhaps. Is it different for you?

[She knew who he was. But that didn't say much for what he might really want.]

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Definitely. [A smile does flit across his face at that.] I tend to be front and centre, by choice.

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Having the choice must make all the difference.

[She sets the cat's food down by the water dish. The animal is still looking up at the god, curiously.]

... Come, Kova.

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[Thor's rarely been around cats in his life. He's not sure if this is normal behaviour for one, though... perhaps it is. He finds himself staring back at Kova, eyebrows raising a bit as if to say, well? What is it?

He's distracted by this staring contest as he replies.]

What do you mean by that?

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[The cat makes a sound, though seems more interested in the fact that Thor hasn't made any attempts toward acknowledging him yet beyond their staring contest. Even the food being ready was not enough to distract from that just yet, or he just doesn't mind making Haggar wait despite asking her for food in the first place.]

... it was an idle thought.

[Up to his interpretation. Conversation was not, exactly, something she was skilled at.]

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Oh. Huh.

[It had sounded more meaningful than that. The cat continues to stare at Thor so he tips his head to the side and points at the food bowl. In case he hadn't somehow noticed the food.]

I've never lived any other way, so it's just natural to me.

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That in itself is something of a choice.

[The cat knows the food is there, but he stands and turns around in a circle, sitting right back in front of Thor.]

... I see that he has become so used to receiving attention that it must surprise him when he does not.

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I suppose so.

[Well, if this isn't a contrary creature. Kova finally gets his way though when Thor leans forward and scratches the cat under his chin.]

I haven't spent a lot of time with cats, to be honest. Do they usually want attention?

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... This one does. I cannot speak for how others may act.

[But that was her fault, for being unable to give her own attention to him properly until recently, and he'd sooner make her wait for it.

At least the cat seems pleased by Thor's acquiesce, sniffing at his hand.]

But perhaps it is because you have been here more often that he wishes to know you.

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[Thor's gaze flickers back at to Haggar, with a tired smile.]

Yeah. I need to be with Loki at the moment, so I've been back here a lot.

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... I am aware.

[Little escapes her notice, even if she seems to lack a presence.]

It is good that you are here for him.

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[He's less certain of that. Thor and Loki have always needed their own space lest they drive each other mad, and in recent years it became much harder to figure out what Loki genuinely wanted from him. Thor is here for Loki's sake, yes... but he's equally here for his own.]

Yes. I hope it is.

[shroudedsecrets]

[To be fair, Loki hasn't mentioned his connection with his brother too much to her, other than the fact that it seemed more positive than what he had with his parents.]

Is there a reason that it would not be?

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Oh, we tend to argue a lot. It can be aggravating to share the same space too often, you know?

[Maybe she doesn't. Maybe other siblings aren't so prone to explosive outbursts as he and Loki are. Maybe Loki being dead would erase their usual petty squabbles. There's a lot Thor doesn't know.]

I am-- sure he'll let me know if I'm being a pain.

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... Perhaps.

[She does not know. At least in regard to siblings. She cannot even remember if she has any of her own or not, nor has it occurred to her to wonder. But the sentiment is understood in other ways.]

Stay away from topics that would bring... an argument. It is better for him to have your company than not.