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[ananym]

[ there's a pretty vampire, looking into the camera curiously before speaking. ]

I have been meaning to ask. Is there anything that you have learned here that has changed your lives?

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[ananym]

[ red robin??? that's a name? ]

Alucard.

Beyond different realities and such . . . no, not particularly.

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

[Tim finds that hard to believe, even just learning from the people he's met in the last month he feels like he's only scratched the surface of what he could learn from all these people]

That's a pity.

Perhaps you could teach other people things instead?

[ananym]

[ alucard's situation is a little more precarious. ]

What would I teach them?

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

[Tim shrugs]

What are you good at? I mean you don't have to but sometimes teaching can open up new avenues to learn as well?

[ananym]

I am not sure my techniques can be passed onto humans.

[ maybe his sword-fighting. but that's not particularly unique. ]

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

Not everyone here is human though?

I am, but that doesn't cut out everyone else?

[ananym]

Even so, a lot of my skills are innate as a vampire. I cannot teach magic or shapeshifting.

I can fight but I am aware that most people possess good fighting skills already.

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

[Vampire? well, he was told there were werewolves, so why not vampires.]

I'm out of suggestions then?

I wish you luck on your search for change? or that you at least get some interesting stories out of it.

[ananym]

[ alucard tilts his head. ]

I appreciate your suggestions. But I'm hoping to look inward, not outward.

[ and skills, useful as they are, would not suffice. alucard is searching for meaning outside of his mission. and he's afraid he'll come up short. ]

Thank you though.

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

Sometimes concentrating too much on what you're trying to do can just be frustrating though Hence my suggestion for other activities?

One of those, it's never in the place you think it's going to be, situations.

Let me know if there's anything I can do to help. I'm already going stir crazy.

[ananym]

[ he nods, solemn. ]

I was tasked with something . . . difficult before coming here. It absorbed everything I was and dictated my actions.

Now, being here, I find myself unsure.

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

[Tim will nod in understanding]

It's hard to have your sole purpose just disappear out from under you? or at least have the urgency removed and be given too much time to think about it.

[ananym]

Both of those things. It will not change my mind nor am I wrong, but it leaves me directionless here.

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

So you need a new goal or purpose while you're here. [He gives that some thought] What do you enjoy doing? or is there anything that you've ever wanted to do but could not justify in your world? or even something that just piqued your curiosity just the once?

[ananym]

[ tough question. ]

I liked the idea of travel, I suppose.

How does that make you feel? Robin plays therapist.

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

Well, we're certainly getting a lot of that here. What in particular drew you to travelling?

shame alucard is several centuries behind mental health

[ananym]

Not much. I spent most of my time in a singular location.

[ and probably will, depending on what happens with the castle. ]

Re: shame alucard is several centuries behind mental health

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

Perhaps that's it though, the appeal is something different? If you're usually in a singular location?

[ananym]

I am enjoying the change in scenery.

[ but it hasn't changed anything about himself. ]

But I am not looking for anything in particular.

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

It's a start? You were interested in travelling well now you're travelling? so the next thing that catches your interest or thoughts like that just I don't know, dive head first into it?

Never know what you'll learn or get out of it.

[ananym]

[ soft and dry, not without humour. ]

Involuntarily. But I suppose we shall see.

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

[Tim shrugs again.]

Make the most of a shitty situation? Clouds and silver linings and all that jazz.

[ananym]

This is not what I'd call a "shitty" situation.

[ like. far from it. ]

[permanentlyexhaustedbird]

What would you call it then?

[I mean is it just not the right word? or does he actually want to be here?]

[ananym]

Captivity without purpose. At least in my eyes.

[ but you know. no one's wiping out humanity and no one seems to be dying. his standards are low. ]