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driftfleet2019-06-01 11:47 am
passingthrough) wrote in driftfleet2019-06-01 11:47 am
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Who: Kitty Pryde and You!
Broadcast: Video
Action: Twin Roses or the Malum on the Iskaulit
When: Now
I have some things I'm looking to send to good homes. There's a lot of men's clothing, some sewing materials, shaving supplies, and a few odds and ends. It's probably time they go to someone who can make use of them. [For anyone whose known her long enough this description might make it clear enough these are Winn's things.] It's been over two years. [She knows exactly how many days over—twenty.] That's probably long enough to hold on to them. [And maybe it will make room for new things.] I'll probably donate them at the next planet if no one is interested, but feel free to stop by the Twin Roses if you want to take a look.
Or stop by the Malum during my shift tonight and we'll pour one out to the people we're still missing. I mean, I'll charge you for the pour, so feel free to use your mouth for it. [She gives the screen a little smile.]
Broadcast: Video
Action: Twin Roses or the Malum on the Iskaulit
When: Now
I have some things I'm looking to send to good homes. There's a lot of men's clothing, some sewing materials, shaving supplies, and a few odds and ends. It's probably time they go to someone who can make use of them. [For anyone whose known her long enough this description might make it clear enough these are Winn's things.] It's been over two years. [She knows exactly how many days over—twenty.] That's probably long enough to hold on to them. [And maybe it will make room for new things.] I'll probably donate them at the next planet if no one is interested, but feel free to stop by the Twin Roses if you want to take a look.
Or stop by the Malum during my shift tonight and we'll pour one out to the people we're still missing. I mean, I'll charge you for the pour, so feel free to use your mouth for it. [She gives the screen a little smile.]
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[He sits down.] I did want to talk about the message from the Interceptors and what it might mean. I acted without the Captain's permission before. That was a mistake in judgment.
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But yeah, let's talk. Seems like we have time to get everyone on board. [Which is nice because last time it led to someone getting all the way off board.] I think I'm kind of the same place. I don't trust it for a second and also figure we'll never get anywhere by not taking a shot.
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[He nods again, getting down to business.]
There is a question of how much we trust the Interceptors. Can we be sure that attacking the Marsiva will free us of its influence? If so, will it also remove us from its life support outreach, such as the protein dispensers? We should plan on it, and that will in part depend on what sort of system we go to next.
But I would like to take my life back in my own hands. There are things I love about this place, make no mistake, but without the freedom to choose them, that love can never be without reservation.
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Zero. I trust the Interceptors zero percent. To me, the most likely case is they are the Atroma or working under their control to get us to jump through hoops for ratings or experimentation or whatever it is they're really in it for. And instead of freeing us we'll just be jumping through their latest array of hoops. But that's always the risk here when they're implanted into our heads and providing the ships and the technology.
Doing nothing means nothing keeps happening. Trying it means we might please them which, what else is new? And there's a very small outside chance it's all true and it works and maybe we defeat them or we get defeated more than we already are. They do have override capabilities on our ships and us after all. [Tapping the back of her neck where the augment rides.]
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Maintaining the status quo means nothing will get better. I am willing to take the chance that it will get worse, because to do otherwise is to live in fear.
[He rests his elbows on his knees and cradles his chin on his knuckles.]
And if they do speak truly? If there is a choice to go home or to stay--I imagine I know what you would choose. I'm still thinking about it for myself.
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Have you and Wanda talked about it?
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[He shakes his head, the troubled look returning.] No. I should speak with the others from my world first and determine the situation there. I know they're further ahead than I am. [He hesitates.] I gather it's nothing good, but I may be needed.
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Just wondering about all the what ifs involved with going back. Do we go back as we are or as we were? [Memories or no? If she has memories then does she have a chance to change things? Can she save the world? Her X-Men family?]
It does seem like the more people remember from your world the less good it is. [She's noticed changes in Thor over time, but she doesn't know who is furthest along in their timelines.]
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[And that's exactly his debate, so he nods.] If we have our memories, we can change the way things happen. I'm already aware we all come from different timelines, even those who seem to come from the same world. If I can change things for the better, I owe it to the people I love to try. Yet when I was gone from the Fleet, time passed at home with no memory of this place. If I cannot change things, then I would need to know more about what happens and my role in it.
[He exhales, annoyed.] And so once again we come down to information.
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I'd have...seconds to save my life if I went back. Maybe less. [Less than seconds is not super heartening.] I'd need to remember and act quickly, but if I could then maybe the future Kurt told me about never happens. [Or maybe she lives and it happens anyway even if she tries to stop it.]
And we probably won't know for sure either way if we decide. I mean it's all far fetched and like I said, I don't trust our would be saviors much more than our captors. [Since they could all be the same people.]
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[He grimaces, almost disbelieving that he's saying this.]
It would be an easier choice to make if one had come here after the moment of death. [And isn't that a terrible thought? He rubs the side of his head and is quiet for a moment.]
I've seen Thor's face when he looks at me, Kitty. He is not terribly skilled at concealing his emotions. How do I tell Wanda that?
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Are you saying you think you're...? [She leans forward, placing a hand over Vision's.] Have you asked him? Do you know for sure?
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I don't know for certain, no. But if I asked Natasha, she would tell me truthfully. Do I want to know?
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No, you're right. It's better to know. It's one thing if the question is academic, but if it would inform my choices it would be irresponsible to ignore the information.
Though it wouldn't make a decision easier, I think. If going back would serve a good purpose, if it would save innocent lives, it wouldn't be a question at all. But if it would change nothing, it would be a needless sacrifice.
[But it's not likely to be that simple. Hell, even Kitty's isn't that simple, and she has at most a few seconds to act.]
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It might be easier to know than to just worry anyway. About your situation at least. Even if it's hard to hear. And if it is especially bad I can give you some tips on effective break down strategies I used. Though they might not work if you can't get drunk.
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He exhales in a huff.]
Ah, no, I cannot become inebriated. I am prepared to face my destiny if I must.
[But it's clear from his expression that the idea is painful. And why shouldn't it be? He's been happy here. He has a home, friends. Family.
He's quiet for a bit.]
If you did stay, what would you do? Settle down on the planet? Take the ship and go exploring?
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And if I stay... [A hard thing to picture even if it is the only sensible, life-affirming option available to her.] Exploring. Looking for Earth maybe. Whatever Earth might be out here.
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[Morbid, so he's glad of the other subject and looks thoughtful.]
There must be one. I'm sure of it - look at all the references we've had. Even if it took a lifetime to find it again, it would be a journey worth going on.
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What about you? Would you want to find Earth too?
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I would like to settle somewhere. I find it unlikely, though. I have responsibilities on Earth. [Which is kind of an answer to both questions, really.]
But if I were truly free? I want a home.
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People are a large part of it. This ship has been a home to me, and it would not feel the same without people I care about on it.
[But it's not quite enough, and he pauses before continuing.]
I have also determined I prefer having enough room to fly, and I would like to stay in one place long enough for it to be familiar. So it would have all three: familiarity, room, people I care about. Having all three of them is a singularly uncommon experience in my life thus far.
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It doesn't seem like it should be too much to ask for does it?
I think I'd just want it to last. [The last thing she'd ever expect it to do.] Okay, and the people too. [She doesn't know what home is except people anymore.]
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