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Who: Sam Winchester
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When: Today!

These masks continue to be a pain in the ass, huh?

But I guess the alternative is being laid up in bed sick — which I don't recommend, in case you're feeling brave, because seeing the people who took off their masks isn't inspiring any faith here. As for me, I'm needing a little break from travelling around down there in all that questionable toxin. Not exactly my cup of coffee, you know? Prefer more open roads, more green and, uh. An ocean I can smell and not go into coughing fits over.

Maybe I'll just spitball some stuff to pass the time while I question what I'm eating from these kitchens? I'm feeling nosy. Call it an acquired skill set, being nosy. Back in the other place I was trapped in, I mostly gathered information about our bestiary; monsters from all kinds of worlds would fall into the world with us, and I did my fair share of fighting some pretty rough creatures. Including the killer rabbits that would try to sabotage my garden. They're small, fast, and aim for the jugular, FYI.

Anyway, pick a number, any number —

1. Favorite fairy tale, ghost story, or piece of folklore.
2. Favorite thing about the other worlds you've been to? (Least favorite, too, if you're feeling like getting it off your chest? I'm a crappy psychiatrist, fair warning.)
3. Ever run into people who know you from a book, movie, or game? Or, uh... manga?
4. War games — which do you prefer, and why?
5. Magic in your world: real or fiction?

I figure I'm being totally transparent, but I'm a big fan of information gathering. But it's also... actually really nice to be in one place long enough to get to know people. How often do you have the chance to learn about alternate universes? Small pluses.

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True, but... Most stories don't end with being trapped in the moons. I'm not sure how they could have much else going on after that. Though I would like it if they did.

Hey, I've been there. Locked up away from the most important person in my life, in what should have been the most inescapable trap. And I made it back to them.

So... there's hope for them, too, y'know?

Not only is there hope, I have an idea already, even. But I'm not sure that's something I can talk about.

Top secret information?

Nah. More like... Monsters that gain power the more they're thought about. I spread information about them, they get thought about more, they power up. And some of them are incredibly evil.

I realize that's stupidly vague, but I hope that gets the point across.

No, I get it. We have something a little like that, too. We call them Tulpas.

Huh. They were called Echoes, where I was. But... Neither of us can probably say much more than that, huh.

For me, not quite. A Tulpa in my world has to be something created with a lot of power. Me alone? I can't do much. But if thousands or millions of people believe in something deeply enough, it could become real through them.

... You got the luckier ones, then, sounds like.

There were originally thirty-six of us at the castle, and that made the Echoes basically gods. Teams expanded until there were a total of ninety-six people and...

Well. Going any further wouldn't be good for that positivity you like.

[There's a grin in his voice, when he replies.]

And here I thought you forgot about the positivity lessons.

I'm just not good at it.

I think... you're probably more like me.

It's easier to say nice things about the people around you than your own predicament and self.

... I mean, you're not wrong, but that's because I'm just constantly surrounded by amazing people?

Well, sure, but I bet you a million bucks some of them feel the same way about you as a friend.

I can objectively say I haven't done as much as any of them.

Well, sure. You're determined to beat yourself up in comparison.

I can't say I blame you or can't understand, though. I feel like I'm pretty much the lowest on the totem pole, when it comes to the people I care about; they're all... you know. I mean. I feel lucky to have known people who are just — better. Than me.

[He's trying say it without it sounding bad, but.

You know.

It's hard to make low self-worth sound good, right, Nightingale?]

[a bit, yeah.]

... You too, huh?

[He smiles thinly.]

Yeah — story of my life, honestly.

So it's not like I don't get where you're coming from. I just... know that you can find more worth in yourself; it just takes a little more time, but you can find some good.

The sad part is, this is already a lot better than I was when I met my team...

How did we even get to this topic? Weren't we talking about Betyl and Sessho a minute ago?

Oh, you know. Topics, they change.

Seems like it's an important one for you, though. Maybe I should make a network entry about my usual regimen. You know, saying one good thing about yourself weekly, or something. I have a feeling a lot of people seriously need it.

Yeah, this is not a good week for that.

Or month.

Or lifetime, really. Does it still count as a lifetime anymore?

Honestly, it's never a good week for it.

But that's kind of the point of positivity, right?

For a lot of people, it helps keep hope alive.

I'm pretty sure my hope has been dead for a long time.

Yeah, well. Weirder things have been resurrected.

Yeah, you're talking to one of them.

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