Video

[killedwithlove]

Who: Cole
Broadcast: Fleetwide (because he doesn't get the 'private' setting)
Action: A shuttle from the Pathstone which is currently out on its own
When: Two days after this broadcast and minutes after this exchange on the Red Fish.

OOC: This post has potential cw: self harm, suicide, murder, and other self destructive things. Please use discretion.

[The broadcast shows Cole's face, too close to the camera, tear streaked and eyes red rimmed and looking the very model of misery and distress. His voice is a cracked whisper.]

Fenris? I need to see you. I need you to do what Cassandra would've and I know you will. Can.

Comments

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[nugqueen]

[Already? Maker this was becoming a problem. She didn't know that she could do what Lambert did. He was a Seeker like Cassandra and Leliana honestly didn't want to hurt him. Varric would be furious.]

Cole, calm down. Tell me what happened. Cassandra is not here to help you but perhaps I can.

[Cassandra wouldn't even stop to talk to him she'd probably put a blade in him without preamble. Leliana had been trying, since things with Riona had been so tense, to show a softer touch when it came to these situations. She would do what needed to be done, what ever way she could, and that didn't change.]

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[killedwithlove]

[Cassandra would've talked to him. Cassandra had been his confidante, who encouraged him to talk to her, even if the things he said were upsetting.]

I tried to cut his throat. It was cold, but I couldn't feel it and he wanted to die and he wanted to suffer and I wanted to do it, I offered for him to look into my eyes and he didn't say yes, didn't say no, he would've let me!

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[nugqueen]

You were trying to help him but went too far. You didn't want to hurt him, did you?

[But then she remembers Rhys being accused of murder in White Spire and Lambert's assertions that he was a demon. Cole was not a demon, though and he hadn't been possessing Rhys. He wasn't a demon now either.]

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[killedwithlove]

No. He wanted to hurt, he does hurt, he hurts so much, all the time, I offered to end it, look into my eyes, and it ends, I make it end.

But I was cold. I deserved to suffer. People think that, I know, I know when they do, and he hurt but he wanted to hurt more than he wanted to die, didn't deserve to die, death is too easy.

[He vanishes from sight again with a small sob.]

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[nugqueen]

Cole, wai-

[Leliana gives a bit of a frustrated scoff, knowing coaxing him to talk more about this would do no good. If he wanted to talk he knew how to find her.]

Maker, that boy...

[She shakes her head, disconnecting the video.]