may mingle (blameless!)

[revivo]

Who: Blameless crew + visitors
Broadcast: N/A
Action: Aboard the Blameless
When: May

[time to get your mingle on, people lacking blame and friends!]

Comments

[takingkarabusiness]

Whew. That's a relief.

[beathach]

It was your idea, why wouldn't you be?

[takingkarabusiness]

Well, I don't know Hank. Maybe there's another girl who wants to taste-test, and you like her better?

[beathach]

[oh my god Kara]

It - no. N-No, you're first no matter what.

[takingkarabusiness]

[ she sits up on the counter, swinging her feet, and laughs ]

Well, good. I'm glad to hear it.

Taste-testing is super important.

[beathach]

Right. Super important.

[why did you bring up other girls!!]

[takingkarabusiness]

[ because she's so bad at flirting ]

Have you gotten any other inquiries?

[beathach]

About . . . taste-testing?

[because that's what this is about, right, nothing else whatsoever]

[takingkarabusiness]

[ right nothing else at all ]

Sure. Out of curiosity.

[beathach]

Uh - no, not . . . past you and - uh, Kitty and Winn. A-And Cisco.

[takingkarabusiness]

Is it something I said?

[beathach]

We're not actually talking about taste testers, are we.

[he's bad at this, so . . . so bad]

[takingkarabusiness]

Maybe not.

I had a lot of fun at the masquerade with you.

[beathach]

. . . I had a lot of fun with you, too.

[takingkarabusiness]

And I know what it's like to want to be able to be yourself around people, but it can be hard to balance that when you're like we are.

[beathach]

[he laughs a little weakly]

It's incredibly hard to balance. Especially when - who you are is still something you're coming to terms with, in a way.

And as you can see, I'm doing a great job of that.

[takingkarabusiness]

What's that supposed to mean?

[beathach]

I spent a month as - myself, and as easy as it was, I still went back to using the serum. [he shrugs] I just mean - I'm not a shining example of balancing who I am with what I am.

[takingkarabusiness]

This is who you are, too, though. I don't think it's that different than someone who, like Alex's mom, identifies as a blonde. Just because her hair is naturally gray at this point doesn't mean she's not being true to herself when she dyes it. The same can be said for a lot of things. This version of you is just as much you—if not more, maybe—than any other version of you.

[beathach]

[he can't help but smile a little]

I'm doing a little more than dying my hair, though. But - I get what you mean. Trust me, I agree with you.

[takingkarabusiness]

It's interesting, because I feel like in some ways we're opposites. I want to embrace the parts of me that set me apart, but I know how important it is to fit in. For everyone. I wouldn't be able to do half the things I do without having the plain, "boring" side of me.

[beathach]

[the smile widens, turning a bit wry]

We are opposites in some ways. I've - given up on fitting in so much as . . . I'm working up to embracing what sets me apart. Compromising. [he sighs, running a hand through his hair] But the plain, boring side of me is still something I fall back on, when I don't want to compromise anymore.

[takingkarabusiness]

I think that's fair. I cheat, too.

[beathach]

Honestly, I think everyone cheats. But - when we do it, it's more obvious. [dryly] And invites arguments.

[takingkarabusiness]

You kind of mentioned that. People disapprove?