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Who: Cole to everyone
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: Pathstone
When: Now

[Cole is actually looking at the camera, which is a minor miracle for those familiar with his habit of leaving his communicator next to him and pointing at the ceiling.]

How do mortals know what you're feeling? Varric used to tell me what it was, or Jove, or Solas, but they're gone and now I don't know what these feelings are. I can tell how to help other people and how to navigate their hurts but I can't do it with my own.

[He gives a small sigh and looks off somewhere. A fluff slug climbs over the communicator screen.]

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[Without her there, he can't tell easily who it is.]

Intuition? I don't understand.

It comes with growth. I was not adept at it, but time has changed me and I have learned. It is a matter of learning.

I thought learning and intuition were... different.

You have one. You gain the other.

Sometimes it requires time to grow. Being in the world and around others allows it to develop. How can your intuition guide you if you do not experience things for it to understand? It is not like magic. It does not work like that.

I don't have magic, so I don't know about that.

[Cole had magic. But Cole didn't understand it.]

So... intuition needs experience to grow.

It is the only example I know.

[ But at least they're getting somewhere, slowly. ]

Yes. It is like many things, and must be given freedom.

Yes.

Freedom is important. People might do things wrong, but they need to get them wrong to learn.

It is part of living, I have found. Mistakes must be made, but... Perhaps there is a purpose in them, at times.

Yes.

If we learn from them... it is not completely awful. You can use what you learn to help others.

Or help ourselves, should we require it.

Yes. Or help ourselves.

Do you believe you will learn?

I will learn many things. I already have.

But I don't know if I can learn what I feel. I'll try.

That you try is enough. Many would not do so.

Rhys taught me that I shouldn't kill, even if I think I'm helping them.

Evangeline taught me that sometimes you have to kill people, to stop them hurting and killing other people.

Wynne taught me I could love my family without liking them. Cole could love his father and still hate everything he did.

But I had to learn to live with the memory of my murder by myself.

Then you are learning, and growing, from people that care for you.

[ Something she's still struggling with herself. ]

You will soon come to know things you never dreamed were possible.

I don't dream.

I don't sleep, but even if I did, I don't think I could dream.

I did not mean dreams through sleep. Dreams can be hopes, too, as foreign as hard as they may be.

... I don't know Hope. Hope is like Faith. I'm Compassion.

I do not know hope either. I do not have it.

Oh.

Do you have dreams? The sort you were talking about.

Yes. Things that I wish to complete, or fight for. I have those.

And they're hopes?

Not to me. I do not hope to do them. I will do them.

So dreams aren't like hopes.