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driftfleet2018-01-20 11:18 am
wolfehawke) wrote in driftfleet2018-01-20 11:18 am
Do pigeons have feelings?
Who: Adalwolfe Hawke
Broadcast: Yes, video
Action: Yes, Malum or Tourist.
When: In the wee hours of the morning, during drift week
Stop me if you've heard this one.
[Hello fleet, it's a very drunk Adalwolfe Hawke on your feed tonight. Which is weird because usually he doesn't make drunk posts, but hey it's been a hard wee- no, mont-... year? No, not long enough.
Life. It's been a hard life. And sometimes that catches up with him, so hooray alcohol and existential 2am thoughts.]
But, right, so, some people in the fleet are from earlier that other people in the fleet from the same versh.. version of the same world, right? So then would them changing someone when they get back - or if I guess 'cause who knows - would them changing a big thing then change that thing for the people here from later there? If say... Idunno, I was from before all the stuff and decided not to go to Kirkwall, would other stuff have happened instead of my stuff? Would that change all the... the stuff?
[Maker he needs Varric or Carver to translate his drunkspeech. He's not so far gone that he can't tell he's making the least amount of sense.]
Or if-if... I dunno if I should say that nevermind, but you all get my point, right? Is it set in stone? Or is it like... all these different Thedaseses that everyone is from, they just get made when something else changed so it still happened but the other thing happened too, somehow? Uh.
[He frowns into his mug. These are very murky, complicated thoughts. Clearly he needs to wash them off with more alcohol.]
Were we meant to do things or do things just happen even if we don't do anything? You get what I'm trying to say, right?
[Someone? Anyone?]
Broadcast: Yes, video
Action: Yes, Malum or Tourist.
When: In the wee hours of the morning, during drift week
Stop me if you've heard this one.
[Hello fleet, it's a very drunk Adalwolfe Hawke on your feed tonight. Which is weird because usually he doesn't make drunk posts, but hey it's been a hard wee- no, mont-... year? No, not long enough.
Life. It's been a hard life. And sometimes that catches up with him, so hooray alcohol and existential 2am thoughts.]
But, right, so, some people in the fleet are from earlier that other people in the fleet from the same versh.. version of the same world, right? So then would them changing someone when they get back - or if I guess 'cause who knows - would them changing a big thing then change that thing for the people here from later there? If say... Idunno, I was from before all the stuff and decided not to go to Kirkwall, would other stuff have happened instead of my stuff? Would that change all the... the stuff?
[Maker he needs Varric or Carver to translate his drunkspeech. He's not so far gone that he can't tell he's making the least amount of sense.]
Or if-if... I dunno if I should say that nevermind, but you all get my point, right? Is it set in stone? Or is it like... all these different Thedaseses that everyone is from, they just get made when something else changed so it still happened but the other thing happened too, somehow? Uh.
[He frowns into his mug. These are very murky, complicated thoughts. Clearly he needs to wash them off with more alcohol.]
Were we meant to do things or do things just happen even if we don't do anything? You get what I'm trying to say, right?
[Someone? Anyone?]
action;;
[He waves his hand dismissively, though that is a relief.]
What I'm asking is all these Thedases, with all the same things and different things, they all exist all at once. Fenris' Hawke wasn't even a mage, and somehow my - his sister lived but for Marian and I? Bethany died. And for me Fenris died, and Isabela disappeared for years but not for Marian and I don't... There's got to be some sequence of events that's better. There has to be one where everything isn't utter garbage.
[He leans back in the booth, eyes bright with inebriation and frustration in equal measure. Ever since he's learned that there are different versions of Thedas this has rolled around in the back of his mind and he can't keep it all back anymore.]
I don't... I don't want to change everything, I know some things ended up for the better, but...
[He drops his head to his hands.]
It's not possible, I know it's not possible, or even advisable because of all the unforseen consequences but I can't help thinking it could be better...