Do pigeons have feelings?

[wolfehawke]

Who: Adalwolfe Hawke
Broadcast: Yes, video
Action: Yes, Malum or Tourist.
When: In the wee hours of the morning, during drift week

Stop me if you've heard this one.

[Hello fleet, it's a very drunk Adalwolfe Hawke on your feed tonight. Which is weird because usually he doesn't make drunk posts, but hey it's been a hard wee- no, mont-... year? No, not long enough.

Life. It's been a hard life. And sometimes that catches up with him, so hooray alcohol and existential 2am thoughts.]

But, right, so, some people in the fleet are from earlier that other people in the fleet from the same versh.. version of the same world, right? So then would them changing someone when they get back - or if I guess 'cause who knows - would them changing a big thing then change that thing for the people here from later there? If say... Idunno, I was from before all the stuff and decided not to go to Kirkwall, would other stuff have happened instead of my stuff? Would that change all the... the stuff?

[Maker he needs Varric or Carver to translate his drunkspeech. He's not so far gone that he can't tell he's making the least amount of sense.]

Or if-if... I dunno if I should say that nevermind, but you all get my point, right? Is it set in stone? Or is it like... all these different Thedaseses that everyone is from, they just get made when something else changed so it still happened but the other thing happened too, somehow? Uh.

[He frowns into his mug. These are very murky, complicated thoughts. Clearly he needs to wash them off with more alcohol.]

Were we meant to do things or do things just happen even if we don't do anything? You get what I'm trying to say, right?

[Someone? Anyone?]

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[dreamofakuze]

[His head fell, turned away to hide the brief smirk before he looked back up.]

You're not as drunk as I guessed, then. Or maybe you've just got a better head on your shoulders than some of the other drunks I've talked to in the past.

But good to know we've got that common ground.
[Sticking their noses where they didn't strictly belong was an art and one that was both dying and hard to pull off sometimes. But Karman did it with a religious devotion and with the stubborness of a mule to boot.]

I guess. I wouldn't know, this other Shepard isn't in the fleet. It sounds like some things might be different, but it definitely sounds like the things that matter aren't. Is it weird for you, having her around?

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[wolfehawke]

I have an excellent head.

[He nods sagely, then gives a very undignified snort.]

Ahh, it's a bit weird, but she and I think so much alike she's basically the twin I never had. I used to be jealous of my younger siblings being twins, and I can see I was justified in that.

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[dreamofakuze]

[He's clearly amused, but there's a touch of wistfulness to it, an edge easily passed over...especially for those who might be a little inebriated.]

It sounds nice. I never had any siblings. [Or even parents.]

But I had brothers and sisters in other ways.

Maybe I'll get 'lucky' and another Shepard will show up here as well.

[Although, with his luck, it'd be some jackass Karman couldn't stand. Like his clone.]

Are you feeling any better? Whatever reason you have for not allowing yourself to be distracted must also apply to being fall-over drunk.

[wolfehawke]

I told you I'm fine. I've been far drunker than this and still fought off a brace of Templars and city guard with one arm tied behind my back. That's not just what Varric wrote, that really happened.

[It totally didn't. What had happened was he'd punched his Templar brother and they'd fallen down in an idiotic pile of wrestling buffoons in the middle of the Hanged Man and it took Aveline, Donnic, and two other guardsmen to tear them off each other and he'd ended up with a broken arm that Anders had to be fetched to set. It must have been after Mother died, he thinks. He doesn't have a lot of clear memories of the weeks after that.]

Are you a father? You act like you have children.

[dreamofakuze]

Of course.

[Maybe it did happen, but Shepard had talked with enough drunks to basically believe none of them at any given moment.

Hawke's question pulls a startled laugh from the Commander.]

No. I'm part of the Navy, there was never time. [Or inclination, you needed two for that tango. Not that he hadn't thought about it. Maybe if he and Ash...or even after, if he'd bothered to try with anyone else. Although his 'interests' had been...limited. It didn't matter now.]

Although, I guess the six-hundred pound Krogen I've known since his 'birth' is close enough sometimes.

Always wanted them, though. Kids. What about you? [Hawke did not act like a father, but it seemed rude not to ask.]

[wolfehawke]

Oh, the navy. I can see how that would make things difficult.

[What's a Krogen? He's about to ask, but the question startles him out of it, pulling a laugh.]

Children? Me? Now you're just making fun.

[dreamofakuze]

Me?

I wouldn't dream of it.

[He wasn't intending to make fun, he was trying to be diplomatic, but he had about a 60/40 shot at actually being successful whenever he did that. At least this time his failure was something he could roll with.

[wolfehawke]

Hmm...

[He's unsure, regarding Shepard with a considering air, then just shrugs.]

My life is too crazy for children, not to mention other more mundane difficulties like no one to actually carry the baby, considering my partner is also a man.

[He says it completely matter of factually. That sort of discrimination isn't much of a thing in Thedas unless you're in line for some kind of high position and Adalwolfe had already decided fuck that a long time ago.]