[ one year anniversary ]

[dothelokimotion]

Who: Loki + You
Broadcast: Video
Action: SS First Breath
When: Today! It's a special day!

( video broadcast )

[ the feed splutters before turning on. loki is surrounded by a whole bunch of boxes. boxes as far as the eye can see. loki has started opening them while the speakers blast this song loud and clear. loki, for his part merely huffs. ]

It seems I have spent a total of a year in this place and the, ah, viewers wish to celebrate. However most of this is useless to me, so I welcome anyone else taking them into their hands.

[ which, ngl, he's into. but the gifts loki has are just . . . baffling. he holds each one up to the camera. we have the mighty thor scooter, captain chickmerica, loki on hotwheels, a masterpiece, plastic horns, disturbing panties and something for "sophisticated men" ]

Please feel free to come by to the First Breath to pick them up.

Also, this has reminded me. Since we are essentially living by this . . . awkward mortal calendar, I have decided I want a birthday. You lot should help me pick one.

[ and get him presents. this is essentially a ploy for presents. ]

Comments

[dothelokimotion]

[ his brow creases as he tries to make sense of that. ]

Trading

[brooklyn_boy]

[He shakes his head.]

Back home I searched everywhere for him. I was ready to help him remember. I was ready to do anything. And now, he's here. He's here. And...I'm keeping my distance.

While spending as much time as possible with Captain Barnes. Because it's easier.

[dothelokimotion]

[ ah. if such a thing happened to loki, he would have stabbed thor out of jealousy. ]

Easier is not necessarily wrong. I am sure Barnes appreciates the space and the chance to discover who he is at his own pace.

[brooklyn_boy]

Captain Barnes isn't mine. His Steve is here, too. Damaged like Bucky is.

[He's held onto this guilt for awhile. It almost feels good to let it out to someone else. Almost.]

It's just...been so long since I had my friend back. I never thought I would and who knows for how long? I don't know the right move to make...

[dothelokimotion]

Perhaps there is no right or wrong. You would not replace your friend and no one would begrudge you to have a few moments with another back.

Not everything needs to be on a sliding scale of morality. Sometimes it's worthwhile to chase what . . . feels good. What feels good for you.

You're human. That entails all that there is to be about humanity.

[brooklyn_boy]

[Look at those eyebrows go up.]

Me chasing what feels good usually gets me punched in the face by a guy a foot taller than me.

[What feels good? Steve is Catholic. He's learned you can never trust that. Feels good almost always is wrong.]

I just don't want to abandon the other. But...I have him back. Imagine that with Thor. Having him be dead for years and then....suddenly back and whole.

[dothelokimotion]

Yes, but you didn't regret it.

[ loki is a firm believer in the selfish. the individual. ]

And I doubt you have abandoned him simply because you're choosing to speak to the other.

[brooklyn_boy]

I don't know what to do with him. Mine. He doesn't know me and doesn't even seem to want to.

[He exhales heavy.]

I just don't know. And then I worry I'm using Captain Barnes. A crutch since mine isn't...really the one I knew.

[dothelokimotion]

[ it's certainly a tricky situation. one loki has never faced. ]

Perhaps you do not need to know or have a right answer. Perhaps there will never be one.

[brooklyn_boy]

You make that sound easy... Maybe I need to learn how from you. How to do things for myself...

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki huffs. ]

Your problem is that you wish to compartmentalize it into a neat box of morality. But that will never work for people you know or yourself.

You want to spend time with him. That is enough for anyone.

[brooklyn_boy]

I feel like I owe Bucky... He's my best friend and he's been hurt. But I don't know how to help him without just trying to make him the man I lost. [The man he has now with Barnes.]

Either way I feel selfish

[dothelokimotion]

[ hmmmm. ]

That may be so, but no person owes happiness to another. And it's just as important to help ourselves first.

[brooklyn_boy]

[Steve stares at Loki a long moment and then smiles almost sadly.]

Who knew you were such a good therapist. You should get an office.

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki shrugs. ]

Human nature is easy enough to see through.

[ perceptive about everyone but yourself, his mother had said once, tears in her eyes. she wasn't wrong. ]

[brooklyn_boy]

You could make some money that way. Although you seem to be a viewer favorite. I don't know that you need it.

[dothelokimotion]

Money is overrated.

[ said the spoiled rich god-prince. ]

[brooklyn_boy]

Your helmet is made of gold.

[dothelokimotion]

I stand by my point. It's not as though we need it here.

[brooklyn_boy]

So you can give me all your credits? I have some things I'd like to buy.

[dothelokimotion]

No. Get your own.

[brooklyn_boy]

I'm not interesting enough. And you said money doesn't matter....

[Gotcha.]

[dothelokimotion]

I said it was overrated, not that I was generous with it.

[brooklyn_boy]

Fair enough, I guess. You could still make more with a therapy office. Just don't pull punches and tell people like it is. They'll love it.

[dothelokimotion]

[ his nose scrunches up at that. ]

Being inundated with the problems of people's lives sounds like a terrible way to pass the time.