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Who: Ahsoka + you
Broadcast: Video (fleetwide)
Action: Common area of the Marsiva
When: Afternoon? Evening??

Has... anyone else been having weird dreams lately, or just me?

Also, what do people do for fun around here? This is the longest I've ever been cooped up in one place. At least if there was something to do...

Anyway, I'm sick of meditating. If anyone wants to come chat or keep me company, I'm sitting in the living area. Does anyone know if they have a dejarik board around here? I'm not much good at it, but it's a good time waster at least.

Oh-- right. I'm always up for a spar, too... if you think you can keep up.

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... Yeah.

I always thought... I don't know. That our paths lay together. That no matter what happened, we'd be always two Jedi having adventures together across the galaxy. And if we went down, we'd go down together, too.

But... I can't go back to the Order anymore.

Why?

... They didn't trust me.

They were my family. And-- I might not have grown up with my parents, but I know that family is supposed to protect you.

I can't fight for... I can't support a system that won't support it's own when the going gets tough.

No, you can't.

Even Anakin?

... Anakin was the exception.

But... I can't stay for just one person, either. That's... not healthy. ... I need to find my own way.

He should have stood up for you.

He did. Believe me, he did.

But one person can only do so much against the combined authority of the Council.

Sounds like it's time for a new system.

As much as I hate to admit it...

I think you might be right.

There's something... wrong with the Republic. With the Order, too. But-- I'm just one person. What can I do? I forfeited all my rights and privileges as a Jedi. I'm just a civilian now.

Hey, me too. And I never really meant to challenge everything but... I did things without thinking, and I'm still alive. Probably.

... What did you do?

I made them change the rules of the game, and, I guess, inspired other people.

The game? ... Do you mean that metaphorically?

No, actually. We have a thing called the Hunger Games. I volunteered so my little sister wouldn't have to go. 24 kids go into an arena, and only 1 comes out alive, usually. I managed to keep myself and my friend alive.

[Ohhhh.]

... You changed the rules.

[She mirrors Katniss's words in understanding.]

Yeah, and I guess it inspired other people to change their rules, too.

I don't know if I wanted all that. I just want to protect my sister.

... But you became a symbol instead.

And symbols have power.

[She knows a little about that.]

Yeah.

I hope I don't lose everything to it, though.

... I hope so, too.

All rebellions have a cost.

Yeah.

Sorry for the horrible pep talk.

No, it's fine. ... I appreciate it.

I just... I wouldn't know where to start. I don't... actually know what the problem is. Just that something feels off. What do I even do with that?

My best friend... she bombed the Temple because she was so convinced that things were wrong. Hundreds of innocent people died. Even if I agree with what she said... what she did was horrible. I don't-- I don't ever want to turn out like that.

Definitely don't do that.

[Ahsoka shakes her head viciously.]

I would never.

What did they break your faith about?

Just... the stuff I mentioned earlier. [Ahsoka shifts awkwardly, considering whether or not she wants to get into this now.]

... I was ... framed for a crime I didn't commit. Terrorism, sedition, treason and murder. The Jedi Order operates independently from Galactic Law, so ... the Senate put pressure on them to expel me so I could be tried in the Supreme Court as a civilian.

I grew up in that Order. They're the only family I've ever known. The Jedi Code is sacred to me. I fought in their war for three years, without question. I thought they stood for-- for justice, for morals and goodness.

But when I was framed... none of that mattered. Nobody would listen to me. They preferred to bend to the pressure of the Senate rather than stick to their own Code. [She tries to keep the bitterness out of her voice when she says that, but she fails miserably. The wound is still too fresh.]