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driftfleet2016-01-31 10:01 am
beardstrokes) wrote in driftfleet2016-01-31 10:01 am
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Who: Obi-Wan Kenobi
Broadcast: Text
Action: Iskaulit
When: Jan 30th
A: TEXT
I think it's time I retire from teaching for a while.
I don't suppose anyone knows a decent way to pass the time?
B: ACTION
[ When Stefan announced the prayer room, a quiet place for meditation, Obi-Wan had been thrilled. While he enjoyed and cared for the Huntress, quiet is not something they are known for. After talking to Anakin, he knew he was in dire need of quiet and inner peace
He does not regret ( he can not regret )
And yet.
In a way he had envisioned as a child, it had always been Master and Padawan, together. Even when separate, they fought together, learned together, believed in each other. But Qui-Gon died all too soon, and for so long, Obi-Wan threw his hands up against tradition. When Yoda told him to be Anakin's master, he chose to be Anakin's friend. He did not caution against attachment, only warned where it might lead.
He breathes heavily, his legs folded on the mat. It's not working. The Force is still too quiet, too alien at this moment. It doesn't understand his sorrow.
Obi-Wan chuckles, opening his eyes and pushing his hair back. It should be used to that by now.
Looking down at his hands, he's quiet when he speaks. ]
Please help me.
Broadcast: Text
Action: Iskaulit
When: Jan 30th
A: TEXT
I think it's time I retire from teaching for a while.
I don't suppose anyone knows a decent way to pass the time?
B: ACTION
[ When Stefan announced the prayer room, a quiet place for meditation, Obi-Wan had been thrilled. While he enjoyed and cared for the Huntress, quiet is not something they are known for. After talking to Anakin, he knew he was in dire need of quiet and inner peace
He does not regret ( he can not regret )
And yet.
In a way he had envisioned as a child, it had always been Master and Padawan, together. Even when separate, they fought together, learned together, believed in each other. But Qui-Gon died all too soon, and for so long, Obi-Wan threw his hands up against tradition. When Yoda told him to be Anakin's master, he chose to be Anakin's friend. He did not caution against attachment, only warned where it might lead.
He breathes heavily, his legs folded on the mat. It's not working. The Force is still too quiet, too alien at this moment. It doesn't understand his sorrow.
Obi-Wan chuckles, opening his eyes and pushing his hair back. It should be used to that by now.
Looking down at his hands, he's quiet when he speaks. ]
Please help me.
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Hmm. My relationship with Anakin isn't the same anymore, and... neither is ours. I guess if I had a hope for the future, it would be that you could see me more as a friend, rather than as someone you can't open up around.
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[ He's a little set in some things. ]
But I'm not saying it can't happen.
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Old habits and so on, right?
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[ And he's feeling it. ]
Though I'll never reach Yoda's status.
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[ Which reminds him. He owes her some information. ]
Yoda believes we will not win the war. He said as much to me. Han Solo and the others have . . . confirmed it for me.
[ Kanan's identity, however, he'll continue to protect. ]
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For a moment, Ahsoka just stares at him, eyes wide in surprise and confusion. Stunned. Unlike Obi-Wan, such a fate had never even occurred to her. Ahsoka has matured so much, but she is still young and naive in so many other respects. She wants the war to end, without question. And she has her misgivings about the Order now, too. But that doesn't mean she wants the Republic to lose. She isn't sure how to take this news at all. ... Finally:]
... What?
Then-- what happens to the Separatists? [She isn't sure she should even be asking. Is this knowledge for her ears? ... But Obi-Wan has started down the path. She has to know.]
Do they... successfully form a new state? Under Dooku? [Ugh!]
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[ As a forethought. ]
As well as the Jedi. That's why I encouraged Anakin's decision and told him the truth.
[ He pauses, quiet. Even now, just speaking about it hurts. It's not simply the knowledge of it.
It was the way Caleb spoke about it. That made so real. For Leia and Han, it was history. Terrible history, but history nonetheless.
Caleb lived it. ]
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... What do you mean? How can both sides be defeated? That doesn't make any sense.
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The whole thing was orchestrated by the Sith Lord. To drain resources from both sides and then claim it all for himself. We all sensed it, in a way. How wrong the war was, how the reasons it was built on were flimsy.
It was simply too late.
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[Watch the slowly dawning horror on Ahsoka's face as the gears turn in her head and she processes the words Obi-Wan is saying. As the full ramifications of those few sentences begin to play out in her mind.
That the Clone Wars aren't even real. That everything they fought for was a sham. That she was never fighting for peace-- she was fighting for a Sith. That all those people, all those clones, all those Jedi died for nothing.]
... No ...
[Her head shakes from side to side just once as she says it. An unconscious reflex, a desperate effort to reject what Obi-Wan is saying, even though she knows he's telling the truth.]
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But Ahsoka and Anakin have left. Which means the seeds of a different Jedi have been planted.
Maybe if he's lucky, he won't survive it.
( but he doesn't believe in luck. )
He waits. There's no point saying more. ]
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Ahsoka jumps to her feet suddenly, as if burned by the floor. She can't sit down anymore. But she doesn't know what to do now that she's standing, either. She needs to move. She needs to throw up. She needs to punch something. She needs to yell, or cry, or something.
She starts pacing instead. She opens her mouth to talk several times, but she isn't able to form full sentences. Every thought she has seems to die before it's fully out of her mouth.]
But that's--
... How did we not--
I can't-- how did you--
There's no way--
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... Barriss was right.
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Barriss had a point. A rather common one, actually, which is shared among many Jedi. The difference between them and Barriss is that they didn't kill people to prove it.
It would have been one thing to attack the Council. It's another to attack people who did not have a choice in the matter whatsoever.
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No, I-- I agree with you! Of course I agree with you. What she did was wrong. No question. I'll never forgive her for it. Nothing justifies the killing of innocent people.
I was referring to what she said. At my trial. Remember? She called us... an army, "fighting for the Dark Side."
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I don't think that's completely true, but it has roots in the truth. The Jedi have been embroiled in the Senate and in the public's eye. All it would take is one small incident for the Jedi to be blamed and turned on.
No Jedi, the Republic and the Separatists on the verge of collapse . . . only a person in power already could seize it all.
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[He said the Jedi were defeated, not that there were none of them. Ahsoka simply can't even imagine a reality where that's the case. No matter how brutal the Clone Wars get, surely there isn't a force in the universe that's capable of erasing the entire Jedi Order.]
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If the Sith win, you don't think they'd leave the Jedi alive, do you?
[ It's why he believes it's not Dooku. Dooku would not wipe out the entire Jedi order. Reinvent it, keep what he needs, rebuild it, but not exterminate it. ]
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But Hera Syndulla says she knows her. Does that mean she escapes? By virtue of leaving? And Obi-Wan clearly survives too. But what of Anakin?
Oh. Anakin.]
... That's why Anakin's children don't know him. Isn't it. [She suddenly feels certain of it.] He doesn't die in the Clone Wars. It's-- it's the Sith.
But-- but that can't be right! He can't die. He's the chosen one. You saw it! I saw it! We were both there--! [At Mortis.]
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[ Anakin is just a person, someone he's trained for so long, he's not even sure where he began anymore. ]
-- someone who has weaknesses, like all of us. All Jedi can die, no matter how powerful they are.
[ It's something he's learned very quickly, very early on, in Naboo. ]
What we saw at Mortis . . . we're not even sure of. How Anakin brings balance, how it works . . . I don't know.
Remember how Mortis ended. We saw it. That is balance too.
[ A terrifying conclusion but still an end, a balance of all forces. Dead. ]
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No. There's no way. That's not balance. What you're talking about is-- is death. Not just of us, but of everything. The Force is life! Without life, there can't be any Force.
There has to be something we're missing. I can't believe that the endgame of the Force is an end to the Jedi, or-- or total domination of the Sith. Otherwise... why bother with Luke? With Leia? With sparing you, or me? There's a reason. There has to be. We just don't understand it yet.
[Otherwise... what point even is there in continuing to believe in the Force anymore?]
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If there is, I do not know it. Perhaps I was meant to survive to train Luke. I cannot speak for the Force. I only live in the here and now.
We don't have all the details. I doubt anyone does. Even the ones from the future won't know the whole story.
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Even so ... it seems too cruel.
... No wonder you've been upset.
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Make no mistake. I would always prefer to know and do what I can. Whether I can change the future for myself or not is irrelevant. As long as I can change it for others.
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