ontrial: (dependable barriss)

[personal profile] ontrial 2016-07-12 01:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[ ahsoka has a point. luminara isn't here for guidance, no, but the war isn't here, either. she doesn't even have a real purpose here, holoshow talk aside, and for all obi-wan had assured her jedi would still be needed here, she wasn't getting that idea yet.

barriss looks away again, uncertain. ]


I'll think about it. [ a beat. ] Have you found what you need here, Ahsoka?
resnipstance: neutral, listening (50)

[personal profile] resnipstance 2016-07-12 01:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ahsoka thinks about that. There's so much that she's found here-- too much. Not all of it what she needed. But--]

Some. [The gradual reparation of her friendship with Anakin. Family. Clarity. Renewed purpose.]

... The rest will have to wait until I get back home.
ontrial: (act casual)

[personal profile] ontrial 2016-07-12 01:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Then I hope you get to return soon, for your unfinished business.

[ she clears her throat as she looks back to ahsoka, visibly pulling herself together to better project the image of calm, confident jedi. ahsoka will know better, of course, but barriss likes to have her guard up like this. ]

I'm glad we had this talk. I really have missed you.
resnipstance: hesitant, unsure (85)

[personal profile] resnipstance 2016-07-12 01:55 pm (UTC)(link)
... Me too. I mean-- I missed you too.

[In that moment, Ahsoka is less guarded and more like her old self, more genuine than she has been for this entire conversation. She allows herself to mean it, and a depth of feeling rushes into those words as Ahsoka realises just how true they are. Because despite everything, despite the betrayal and the anger and the painful awkwardness of this whole conversation and having to carefully choose her every word as if navigating through a minefield... she has missed Barriss. Not the Barriss she last saw, being taken away to prison-- but the Barriss she used to be friends with.

A small part of her brain comments that she's probably setting herself up for heartbreak all over again, just by allowing herself to acknowledge even that much.

There's an ache in her chest. She feels too young and too old all at once.]


I know things are weird at the moment, but... I hope you know that I'm here for you, too, Barriss.
ontrial: (sweetheart smile attempt #273)

[personal profile] ontrial 2016-07-12 03:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[ there's a little pause before barriss smiles at that. just her usual little smile, but it's always been extra soft for ahsoka. this is her best friend, a person she admires, the person she was hoping to see on coruscant and now gets to see here, even if almost everything is different. ]

Of course. The same goes for you. You may have given me a lot to think about, but I know you've been through a lot yourself.
resnipstance: talking, disbelieving, hesitant (178)

[personal profile] resnipstance 2016-07-12 03:54 pm (UTC)(link)
["Been through a lot" doesn't even begin to describe it...]

... Good. I mean-- I hope you do. Think about it, I mean.

Anyway, I should really get back to the ship. I'm helping out our Captain while she's recovering from an injury, but you're welcome to drop by anytime.