Meanwhile on the loveboat (mingle log)

[destinyembrace]

Who: Crew of the Blue Fish, anyone who's been invited, and any visitors! So basically everyone
Broadcast: Nope
Action: On the Blue Fish, mostly probably in the kitchen and the mess hall because PARTY
When: Today~

[If there's anything this freaking ship loves, it's food. Somehow, a dinner got planned to welcome the new member. And then other people got invited. And then the dinner pretty much turned into a party with a lot of food. Needless to say, Kairi has been very busy preparing food all the day for this.

There's a lot of meat, per the captain's request. But there's also veggies, some fruit, pasta, and even brownies! There are also two pizza pies. Basically, Kairi just cooked a bunch of food and hoped it would be enough, as she had no idea how many people were coming.

SO DIG IN, BLUE FISH AND GUESTS. Also mingle and be social and all that jazz!]

Comments

[save_the_souls]

Benign Spirit...ah, yes. That's a good term for you, I think.

What about you? Do you have a favourite kind of animal?

[killedwithlove]

Not Vengeance or Audacity or Rage.

Favourite? No, but I like nugs.

[save_the_souls]

Nugs? What are those?

[killedwithlove]

They're... animals. A bit like rabbits. With hands. And no fur.

[save_the_souls]

They're....hairless rabbits with hands?

[Okay, maybe his imagination is getting away from him but that sounds like the opposite of cute]

I s-see...

[killedwithlove]

[Most people find nugs fairly creepy. It's not just Allen.]

I don't know if they're cute, but I like them. They're gentle and they don't need much from me. Being with them is peaceful.

[save_the_souls]

I...guess I could see that appeal.

[He'd rather not see one kay thanks]

[killedwithlove]

Sometimes... I go and sit with animals, instead of helping people.

[He admits this like it's a terrible secret.]

[save_the_souls]

[...Oh Cole. That is such a serious tone there]

There's nothing wrong with that, Cole. Everyone needs a break sometimes.

[killedwithlove]

Spirits shouldn't.

But sometimes... it's nice to be with animals. I can help them much easier.

Don't tell Solas. Please.

[save_the_souls]

...I won't tell Solas, promise.

[It helps that he's not even sure who Solas is.]

But...I don't think it's bad you sometimes takes break sometimes. Maybe spirits don't do that normally like you say, but you're rather unusual for a spirit, aren't you? So you deviating from the normal is to be expected.

Besides...maybe taking breaks and finding things you enjoy besides your work might help you understand humans better- so you can help them better.

[killedwithlove]

Thank you.

[He looks uncertain, but a bit hopeful at Allen's words.] You think so? It's... okay if I take breaks from helping people, because I'm... different now.

[save_the_souls]

[He gives a nod.]

I do. You do a lot of good, don't you? So...if you feel like sometimes relaxing and...playing with animals, I don't see anything wrong with that.

[killedwithlove]

I try to do good. Sometimes I don't help. And I make things worse. It's awful. I make things bad for some people. But I stay away and it helps them feel better!

[save_the_souls]

[....]

I don't understand. Do you mean...that sometimes you make mistakes and that hurts people instead of helps?

[HE'S NOT SURE STAYING AWAY IS THE ANSWER THERE....]

[killedwithlove]

Yes. No. Both. Sometimes, me being around hurts. My presence, knowing what I am and do, cuts and carves and crowns the pain. So I stay away.

When I make things bad, I try to help. Sometimes... I can't. And I'm sorry I came through when that happens. I don't want to hurt people.

[save_the_souls]

What? But you're just a Spirit, right? A Spirit of Compassion.

Unless someone has a fear of...ghosts, maybe- why would you being around hurt them?

[killedwithlove]

Spirit. Demon. I don't know. I hear things and it hurts people to know I know them. Or... I don't know. But it does. And so I don't go near them.

[save_the_souls]

[There's a considering pause before he speaks]

...Cole, you're no demon. If there were anything demonic about you, I'd be the first to know. And when I look at you, I see nothing of that sort.

As for these people...[Pink hair with a purple hat. She uses her body to guard him from a blow when despair makes his limbs lead. Always a guardian, always protecting.] ...A friend once told me, that saving people is no simple task. Every person is different, so it takes different things to help them. But you can't know what it'll take to save them unless you understand them. Which...isn't always easy.

It sounds like, to me, it's not you that's hurting them, but those things that you know about them that does. And while sometimes some knowledge is better left to be forgotten, or not spoken about....you just avoiding them....

That won't really make them stop suffering. Not in the long run.

[killedwithlove]

I know about helping people. I know what hurts and I know what will help. I was Compassion before I was Cole. So I just know those things.

And it isn't what I know that hurts him. It's what I am. That hurts him. Digs into something old.

I can't make him hurt. That's not right.

[He pauses and then looks at Allen.]

Crowley told me that he's a demon, but he clearly isn't.

[save_the_souls]

[Allen frowns a little, but at least backs off a bit on the first part.]

Does it? Did he...have a bad encounter with a spirit? [He doesn't understand it. He can't see what would cause anyone to make people hate Cole for what he is. Maybe a little...weirded out, but besides that...]

[And that makes him snort a little about Crowley]

No, Crowley's definitely a demon. I know that much. He might not be the sort of demon you're used to, though.

[killedwithlove]

He knew a spirit who lived in a person. That's not good. For the person or the spirit. They... warp each other. Change their natures towards something not right.

I don't live in anyone. well, I don't live in anyone but me.

[He gives Allen a suspicious, disbelieving look.]

... no. He's not a demon. He can't be.

... are you sure?

[save_the_souls]

You mean like a host...? [Or rather, a host that didn't keep things in check. Ugh, that hits a little close to home. He knew how being a demon host could warp a person, he's seen it first hand. It was a constant fear for him, being warped in such a way.] ....I see....

[That would color someone's view, but...it didn't make it right to take it out on Cole. How did he express that? Especially when it's something personal to him. Sigh. He'll focus on Cole's suspicion about Crowley]

Yes, I'm quite sure. Crowley is a very old and very powerful demon from my world. [Or a version of it anyway] But he also doesn't mean anyone harm beyond simple pranks. So you and your friends would do best not to try to hurt him.

[killedwithlove]

I don't know. I mean they live in each other. Demons who get into bodies usually overcome the mortal soul. Spirits... can live with them. But it warps them both. The spirit becomes something more like a demon. The person does too.

[Cole looks shocked and a little hurt that Allen thinks he would attack Crowley.]

I live with Crowley. He's not anything I know, but I wouldn't hurt him. He doesn't want to hurt people. I only hurt people to stop them hurting others.

[save_the_souls]

...Yes. I've encountered such a thing before. Usually, we call them "hosts", or "demon hosts" if it's definitely a demon. You find them in many different worlds.

[Allen meanwhile may feel a twinge bad for making Cole hurt, but, well...]

Sorry Cole, I'd hope you'd feel that way and I don't mean to offend....I've just known Crowley a long time and I've had to deal with many well-meaning people who've only seen the demon part. [Plus you know people from your world have also killed a dude for having a slave, and slayed a dragon for...being a dragon. SO YOU KNOW, CAN NEVER BE TOO SAFE WITH YOU THEDAS FOLKS]