driftfleet | Tourist ROAD TRIP (mingle)

He was catastrophizing a scenario where Zoom showed up and everyone was defenseless, and I kept telling him that I'd handle it. Because, you know, you're going to help me get back to 100%, and I can actually do the heroing thing. I know Barry's fast but so am I, and a lot of other things besides. Cisco kept dismissing what I was saying, and then realized what he was doing and apologized. But like I said, he's not the only person who's been like that.

I know it's mostly my fault. I mean, that's part of the charm of me being regular personal assistant Kara Danvers, isn't it? Someone who couldn't possibly have special powers and save the day. You know as well as anyone that it's not entirely a secret identity though. Yeah, probably the cardigans and cute dresses started as a way to seem non-threatening, but I'm kind of a nerd. It's not surprising that people are buying into that. Technically it means I'm doing a good job. But it's different when it's people who know both sides of me, you know? I expect Ms. Grant to condescend to me. It just sucks when it's people who know what I'm dealing with.

Ok first of all - why are you saying 'nerd' like it's a bad thing? [ come on kara. ] Look I know -- what it's like to want everyone to just - take you at your word. [ he wants everyone to trust in him as easily as jim does - the moment when he told him he's incapable of turning into his dad was one of his best in the fleet - in his whole life. ] But the truth is - they don't know both sides of you. I'm the only one who really does, here. All people know here is what we show them - if you want them to see Supergirl - you have to show them Supergirl. And I don't mean find something to fight I mean - show them that indomitable, fearless spirit. Show them the woman who wasn't afraid to march into Ms. Grant's office and tell her off, the one who wouldn't hear of letting me deal with my dad alone. Show them the Kara I know.

[ she huffs, knowing he's not wrong, bubbling with rebuttals, but knowing it's not worth going point-by-point. He's right ]

I just feel like I've played it all wrong, you know? From the beginning. I wish I'd known from the get-go that no one would care that I'm an alien.

You can change course anytime you want, you know. I don't think people would judge -- secret identities are pretty common here.

Alex would be really irritated if she showed up, I think. But you're right.

I never had a sibling so don't take me at my word here, but I'm pretty sure it's a little sister's job to drive her big sister crazy.

I certainly do that.

I really miss her.

[ she leans her head on his shoulder ]

I know.

[ he wraps an arm around her, rubbing her shoulder. ]

I'm working on it. I promise, you'll get her back.

[ or he'll kill himself with exhaustion trying. ]

[ she's really comfortable like this ]

You know, I miss her, but I don't hate it here. I admire all the work you're putting into everything, and I know how vitally important it is for you to find a viable way to get Kitty out of her situation. But not everything needs to happen right this second. If we can spend our time here doing good for the other people we're with, even if it means delaying going back, then I'm okay with that.

It's like, when Barry showed up in National City, he wanted to go home, but he still spent the day with us, trying to figure out our Banshee and Livewire problem. And then when that was taken care of, I helped him get back.

If you burn yourself out... you'll still be an amazing person and a great friend, but you'll get frustrated. I know that about you.

I'm fine missing her, Winn. It doesn't need to be solved right now. I'd rather have my powers more functional than a quick exit out of here.

[ he smiles, and pulls her closer for a moment. ]

Yeah, that's the Kara I know and love. [ brave, strong, putting everyone else first. if she showed everyone else this side of herself, he has no doubt she'd get whole other reactions. ]

Are you and Jim ganging up on me, or do I really look that bad?

[ she laughs ]

He got on your case about it? I guess trying to fix everyone is a popular hobby around here. There's not much else to do.

You look fine. Maybe a little tired. I don't think space travel is really kind to most people, you know? But like I said, I know you.

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I got called in to the principal's office.

[ he nods, it's pretty funny when he thinks about it like that and not about how emotionally exhausting it was. ]

You do. [ he smiles. it's part of what makes her so irreplaceable to him. to a lot of people here, he's an image of niceness and helpfulness, but kara's known him a long time, she knows his ups - and his downs. he's so much more comfortable being himself around her. ]

I'm trying to rearrange my work schedule. [ it's just not really working. ]

We'll get you in shape, by hook or by crook. I can reclaim my office at any time, you know.

Jim said he'd look into getting me a designated work space, so you don't scare me. For a disapproving dad, he's pretty enabling.

In my defense, I haven't been around a lot of Disapproving Dads, besides Director Henshaw. My dad was great, and Alex's dad was also great.

Disclaimer about my dad goes here.

It doesn't seem like he was particularly disapproving, though. Just... well, you know.

Anyway, the point is, I feel like neither of us is really equipped to deal with that kind of person.

I dunno, I think activating 10 bombs to teach me a lesson is pretty extreme disapproval.

[ closest he's come to admit to how scared he is of what might happen if his dad shows up and thinks that he should be taught a lesson for his disobedience. ]

Yeah, but you know...I don't mind it so much. [ he actually really liked it. not the - being told off part, but being taken care of, feeling like he's not going to be given up on no matter what...it makes it all worthwhile. ]

I can see why. It means Jim's invested in how you're doing. It's like how Alex's mom is so hard on her, but it's just because she cares about her success so much, and knows she can do incredible things.

Even if it makes for the worst Thanksgivings.

Yeah - exactly. [ except it's new and exciting for him, and jim compliments him more than he berates him. ]

And I dunno, it was the best Thanksgiving I've had in years. [ he shrugs ] I still dream about those leftovers.

[ pokes him in his side ]

You're going to make me hungry, Winn.

Oh no - you're not pinning that on me. [ he laughs ] But Kitty got me some snacks, we can split some while we wait for Sascha.

If I were smart, I wouldn't tell you that she got me donuts, and just take advantage of your stash. But I can't lie to you. I can totally take advantage of your kindness, though.

You got donuts? [ fake overly dramatic gasp! even as he's laughing ] And I thought she loves me - so they're all gone, I take it?

[ her face reads as: she is thinking really hard about lying, but decides to not. she pulls the package out of her nightstand, only half depleted ]

Who knows when I'll get more! But I'll share.

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