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[ The video flickers on to Leto sitting on his bed, kicking his legs briefly. He grins when the video starts recording, pushing himself onto his feet. He tilts his head, that odd bird-like movement he often exhibits. ]

I have heard some interesting things of late, so I thought I'd put the question to you all. When you fall in love, can you only love one person? Can you fall in love with multiple people? Is love something you find yourself stopping after just one?

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...That's not good either. I'm sorry to hear it. [Not knowing the extent of what this hurt was of course, but assuming it's a personal thing for him.]

[ He shrugs. It is personal. It will never stop being personal to reveal that knot of bitterness and love he held for them. ]

Loving one person doesn't necessarily minimize hurt. Some of the greatest stories end in tragedy for the love is for one, but jealousy is plenty.

I guess I was just thinking it minimized one specific kind of hurt, but you're right. There are plenty of ways for any kind of love to hurt you.

I find it easier to love more than it is to focus love on one person.

Do you like being loved the same way? When you're just one of many?

It would be unfair to ask someone to commit to me.

[ For many, many reasons. ]

Being one of many doesn't bother me, so long as I am one.

That's kind of impressive. You never worry about being last on the list?

Why? Isn't it better to be on someone's list than not part of it at all?

I don't think it would feel good to not be at the top of anyone's.

Ah, but why is it a list to begin with?

I don't know, Leto. Maybe you're just really into list makers, okay? Why these questions anyway? Something up?

[ He frowns lightly. ]

I don't recall ever saying that it should be a list. Placing one over the other is not a principle I subscribe to.

[ It's also why he's never been completely fond of monogamy. Too many problems arise from it. ]

I ask because I'm curious. That is all.

[No, the list was all her because of the insecurity she can slip into when she feels someone's attention drifting to another. It's not about the other person, but it makes her wonder what she's lacking. It's not a pretty feeling or one she likes to admit. It also leads to the fear of losing someone and she gets worse at that with practice, not better.]

It's not like it's something you choose. It's just something that can happen.

Perhaps. But the choice remains regardless.

Do you think loving lots of people leads to fewer problems? [Because she's having a hard time seeing that.]

[ He considers this carefully. ]

I do not think love should be limited. That is how petty jealousies and hurts come to me. You often think to yourself, why them and not me?

I do not want that kind of feeling to arise.

Have you? Prevented it.

I have never had any problems because of it. They had others they loved too, or loved first. I was never lesser.

[ In a way, he preferred. Best not to love someone who was slowly degrading over time. ]

No one ever wanted only you?

[ He considers this. ]

Ghani, perhaps. She never showed much interest in others. But she doesn't have the same experiences.

[She wonders if it's just the way of his world more than anything.]

Are any of them here?

[ He hesitates. ]

Two. One of them remembers me.

[ He leaves it at that. He doesn't want to put Susan in an awkward position. ]

I'm sorry, Leto. [Being forgotten by someone you love... How many times was she afraid Reid would come back like that after he disappeared? Then again, it might have been more merciful than what actually happened.]

[ He shakes his head. ]

I have enough. And who knows? They might be happier for it. Who am I to deny that?

Maybe you are on to something. You seem like you handle it well. [She can't say the same of herself when things take a turn.]