driftfleet | Tourist, May I?

We talk about the real issues.

[ he nods ]

I'm proud of you. [Kisses both of his cheeks and then moves in on his lips. It's a good way to show pride.] And no death threats?

[ it's the best way to show pride, but she's getting a quirked brow at the inquiry. ]

Should there have been?

I wouldn't say that. I just thought the possibility existed.

Wit-jealousy's that bad? [ he knows that's not it, but man, wouldn't it be nice if it were? ]

Um...no. [She gives him a soft smile.] Standard "if you hurt her" stuff.

[ he tucks a loose strand of hair behind her ear. ]

I should disclaimer to all your friends - if that somehow ever happened, they'd have to get in line behind me.

[ he wishes he could promise that he would never hurt her, but people hurt each other in small ways just by being close, and in big ways...he feels better, about his sanity, but the fear isn't going to disappear because of one good talk. ]

No one is hurting anyone anyway. It's a no hurt zone. [But yes, she knows that's not how it works. When you let someone in and you're vulnerable to them they can hurt you without ever meaning to. But for the moment she can pretend, right? Besides, she's not worried about the small things you can easily recover from. It's the big betrayals and losses she fears.]

[ after everything she's been through, he's worried about the small things for the both of them. he knows they'll come, sooner or later no matter how hard he tries they'll come. but he still tries to ward them off for as long as he can. he wants to be a part of her life that's just good, just happy, as naive and impossible as that is. ]

No hurt zone.

[ he echos with a small smile, and leans in to kiss her again. ]

So much better than the phantom zone. [She kisses back warmly, happily and maybe even naively!] Mmmm~

Though we might kinda be in both - [ if people can go home like no time has passed that means that no time passed for them here either, right? wait, no, kissing, now's not the time, why are we talking about the phantom zone anyway? ]

[She pulls back for that.] What now?

[ why is the kissing always stopping ]

Well, I mean the Phantom Zone's a region of space where time doesn't pass, right? And people go back like time hasn't passed for them - at home or here - at least that's what it sounded like? I mean I could be wrong, it's hard to tell if you're a couple-months-to-a-year older - but if they pick things up where they left them it just sort of...adds up?

[Is this where she accidentally hurts him by talking instead of kissing? Is Kara going to hurt her?]

Hmm...though sometimes people do get more memories like Kara.

[ nah, she'd have to full-on supervillain for that. ]

But is that time moving at home -- or here? Or is both? If time's moving in our heads, is it also affecting our bodies? And how can we even be sure those memories are real, if we have a brain implant and we dream them?

[ so many questions: zero answers. ]

I've seen physical changes happen when people get new memories, but it was at the prison. [Yes, aging is hard to see, but scars or other changes that might come along for the ride aren't.]

So the question is -- does it or doesn't it work the same here.

[ they could be testing out different conditions between their arenas. nothing is certain! ]

I guess it is. Maybe we should ask around since Kara wasn't gone long her experience isn't that informative.

And she doesn't really physically change easily -

[ no scars on the kryptonian. he nods. ]

Right. So, something to check out. [Brushing her fingers through his hair.] Sometimes I'm not sure if I can do this. [She should really explain what "this" is, shouldn't she?]

[ he tilts his head - yeah, 'this' is going to require an explanation ]

If you can do what?

Rage against the machine? I don't know. I feel like I've spent most of my life fighting one unstoppable enemy or another without gaining any ground. The idea of going after the Atroma is so natural to me, but then... I don't know. I just get tired and weary thinking about doing it all again.

[ he strokes her cheek ]

Kitty... [ he sighs, and pulls her in for a hug, kissing the top of her head. he can't imagine everything she's been through - what can he say that wouldn't sound like the naive ramblings of a sheltered child? ] They're not unstoppable. They're good, I'll give 'em that, but I've never met a system I couldn't crack with enough time, and I never met an enemy Kara couldn't stop. We are going to do this, all of us, together. But it's gonna be a marathon, and if you need to sit it out - it's alright. [ it's more than that, though, he'll stake everything he's got on it. if they win here - everyone will go home, and what will happen to her? he pulls back to look her in the eye. ]

I know you asked me - not to. I know you've - been let down before. I just - I need to say this once and we never to speak of it again. I'm not working to leave you.

[ take her with him or stay here with her - he's not going to do to her what everyone else in her life has. ]

[Maybe not unstoppable. They did stop Apocalypse. They just got a much worse enemy in his place—her mentor. The deck feels so completely stacked against them some days.

She meets his gaze and for a moment she can't remember ever asking him not to say such a thing. But she did. Of course she did. Because the thought of that moment on the ferris wheel with Reid when he invited her to his world and how...wanted she felt then. And how later he told her he just couldn't do this anymore. Couldn't be her lover, her partner, or even her friend. He didn't want her in any part of his life and while he never exactly retracted the offer she was sure it wasn't on the table anymore. At least not with him as part of it. The rejection hurt, not the failure to make it happen. She was never sure she could expect it to really happen, but that wasn't completely in their hands.]

I know you aren't. [Well, maybe she didn't know exactly. Even in this moment she doesn't believe he'd choose her over his life back home if it came to that, but she probably wouldn't want him to—not fully at least.] I love you. [She slips closer to wrap her arms around him.] I haven't been very good with the future for awhile, but you make right now so much better for me.

[ it never ends, does it? defeat one enemy, and the next one is already there to pick up the mantle. the black mercy came so close to defeating them, to take kara away, and what could any of them hope to do without her? yeah, there's superman, but he has a whole world to take care of, and metropolis has its own problems. but she came out on top, and he has to believe they always will. otherwise, they'll never be able to do anything at all.

his eyes mirror how earnestly he does mean it. it's true, nobody knows what they'll actually do in any given situation until they're there, but right now, he can't think of anything he wouldn't give up to stay at kitty's side. kara's right - you can't be a third wheel forever, and that's what life has in store for him in national city. he'd miss kara with a burning that will never subside, he'd miss his tech, his work, the thrill of helping kara take down the bad guys, he'd miss movie nights, and game nights, he'd miss a lot. but kitty loves him, and he'd miss that more. ]

I love you too.

[ he holds her tight. ] Baby steps. Start with the now, we'll work our way up to the future.

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