driftfleet | February Windrose mingle

[To Kurt]
[She starts by knocking on his door, but she'll be phasing inside if he doesn't answer or tells her to go. She's worried about him. She hates that this happened. She doesn't want Wrath back in that place that was so clearly messing with her mind. She doesn't want Kurt to lose someone who he'd grown so close to. Maybe they never got to the part of admitting they were in a relationship, but they'd been together almost as long as she and Winn. She knows he cared deeply for her and she can see the progress he's making in the fleet away from all the darkness of their homeworld.]

[Moving forward]
[So many of the ships have been down to only five members, but she didn't think that would be the Windrose. It had been so full when she arrived. The whole fleet had. Apparently, she came in during a swell of numbers. Every ship was over capacity and the Blameless came to life before her eyes. But even as things started to dwindle the Windrose felt so solid. And then Vision was gone and it felt like the safety net was gone, but they went on. Then it was Wrath and even Misty, not that she begrudges her friend her happiness. It all just feels so unsteady now. She has so many friends in the fleet. She has Winn. She has Kurt. But this home of hers is less secure. So in flux. For a moment she even thought about seeing if Kurt would go with her to the Tourist, but she put the thought out of her mind again. She's the captain now. She won't abandon it so easily. Still, it's the people and not the ship that made this home, so it's hard.

She doesn't love the idea of taking the captain's room. More than thinking of Wrath there she thinks of Vision. Still, when she sleeps on the ship she stays with Winn and a larger bed sounds blissful even as much as she likes to cuddle. So after a few days she does start moving her things in, glad to see the new bedding she bought on Ikke was oversized enough to still fit.

She'll be doing more walk throughs of the ship and spending time with Officer Snuggles. She wants to get an engineer and a lab tech for the crew. She'd also like to see someone step up as first officer since she is gone so much to stay with Winn. There's her dance studio to work on off ship and plenty of other things to distract her, but she wants to make sure the Windrose is in a good position if anything ever tries to attack them again.]

[Wildcard]
[Things! Stuff!]

(OOC: Written for post Feb.10 shuffle and anytime after in February.)

[ the plan was simple - come to the windrose, ask kitty for a glass of water for a fake headache, hide the chocolate in her locker while she's out, have an awesome surprise for tonight. they could use a cheesy (or chocolaty) night of romance, and with valentine's day coming up, it feels like the perfect opportunity.

the plan went wrong.

when kitty comes back into the room, winn is standing in front of her open locker. in one hand, he still holds the box of chocolates he's been holding onto since the hotel, wrapped with a red and white ribbon. in the other - he's holding something by the straps that seems to have planted him in place, something he can't seem to stop staring at. he's never actually seen one of these before, but it's pretty instantly recognizable.

when the hell did kitty get that?! ]

[She phases back into the room without any fanfare because, well, he knew she was coming right back and it's her room. Well, she tends to think of both the rooms at least partially as "their" rooms but either way, partially hers.

She's lucky she doesn't drop the glass of water she's holding when she realizes what he's holding. Oh god, that look on his face.]

Um... [Oh god, oh god, oh god.]

[ a part of him wants to stick it back in her locker, hide it away like he got caught doing something wrong (okay, he went a little deeper into her locker trying to cover up the chocolates, but he wasn't snooping, he keeps clothes in there too, just like she keeps some in his! he's allowed to open it!). another part of him wants to stick it back in there so he could pretend this never happened.

but the damage is done, and he seems to be stuck, anyway. he turns to face her, and that look doesn't seem to be leaving his face. ]

What - [ no, not what is this, he knows what this is, his face wouldn't be making this look if he didn't know what this is. but he just can't seem to process it, to decide what to ask first - why, where, how long, who knows, when were you gonna tell me, what was the plan here - there's so much to choose from! ]

[Her stomach is doing flip flops. She feels like the one caught doing something wrong except it isn't really wrong. It's not like she was using it with someone else or like she was going to do anything without his knowledge and consent. Still, a hard blush has formed on her face!]

It...It's a strap on. [Which even without the ability to read brackets she realizes probably isn't the part he wants to know. She sets the water glass down because she's feeling a little shaky with nerves. She really hopes he isn't mad or offended or just anything negative, but that isn't a positive face. She tries to keep some cool though. She doesn't want them to spiral here. There's nothing wrong with this. They are two very, very...very sexual adults who love each other.]

I thought it might be something we could try someday if we were ready and we both wanted to and we don't have to!

[ his brain is the first to unfreeze - and it just takes off running, a hundred miles an hour. he hasn't thought of their time together while she was glitched since it happened, hasn't allowed himself. he tried to push it back and pretend it never happened and it was easy enough - there's always a ton going on to keep him busy, and it's not like kitty or anyone brought it up, either.

but now, he realizes, that wasn't the case for kitty. she thought about it enough to get herself this. and just like that the dam breaks and he sees her face - that wasn't her face - when they were done, hears the bliss in her voice - that wasn't her voice, it was deep. deeper than his - as she told him she could see music.

how much has she been thinking about this? has she been unsatisfied? he doesn't want to think that, that's a horrifying thought because if she was faking that than she is possibly the best liar he's ever met. but then why? did she get this...for him?

that thought is horrifying too and his face can't seem to decide if it wants to go red or pale. ]

Where'd you get this? When did you get this - why? [ the pitch of his voice is high, stressed. his heart is drumming in his ears and if this keeps up that headache won't stay fake for long. ] I know why - [ yeah blushing now he doesn't need her to tell him what it's used for. he's got that covered. ] I mean, why. [ is this for her or for him. and how critical is it if it's for her. ]

[She steps up closer to him and very gently reaches out to take both the chocolates and the strap on out of his hands if he'll allow it and set them down. She just wants to clear the way for stepping in and wrapping her arms around him. She knows it would do her a lot of good to have this conversation in a hug. She thinks he might find it reassuring too, but she won't push if he reacts badly toward any of it. She doesn't want to make him even more comfortable in this moment as he's so clearly trying to sort things out.]

Back when there were games on the Marsiva. It was one of he prizes and I was curious, so I started playing toward getting it.

[ he doesn't struggle to hold to anything, and he lets her wrap her arms around him - he even starts to instinctively wrap his around her when her answer comes and he pulls a little back so he could look at her. ]

It's from the Atroma?

[ this just got a whole lot worse for him. it's bad enough to see his account fill up after they have particularly bold sex. but this? it's like they're directly interfering with their love lives, like they're directing them in a porn. ]

Well, I wouldn't look at it like that. [She does have a thin, poorly defined line that runs between things she's okay with like spending the money they put in their accounts and eating their provided "food" when she can't find anything else or sleeping on their ships but then being horrified at the idea of personal augment upgrades. This was dangled in front of her, but she chose to get it.] It was from me.

[ it was dangled in front of her on purpose. they want to see her use it and the thought makes him feel sick to his stomach. most of the time, he manages to ignore the fact that he's constantly being watched. but this is a horrifying reminder. ]

They put it in front of you. [ oh god, who knows if it's even safe, what if it's designed to get stuck or something, for maximal humiliation? ]

[Winn, please.]

Look, I'm sorry, okay? We can throw it out. [She was worried it wouldn't go well and unsure if she even wanted to, thus putting it off this long, but she didn't expect him to look at it that way. She finds it disappointing and she's not sure why. Maybe just feeling foolish about it now. It's not a feeling she handles particularly well.]

[ that's not fair. that's not fair because he can't handle a disappointed kitty, not when he's the cause. he hasn't even had the time to wrap his head around the toy itself when its origin started freaking him out and now she's disappointed and a part of him wants to just tell her yes okay he'll do it just don't look sad, not because of him.

his legs feel weak, so he sits on the bed, pulling her with him. ]

You really want this. [ softly. he doesn't know how to feel. he doesn't trust the atroma, he hates to give them what they want, and he doesn't even know how he feels about it regardless of them yet. kitty's feelings seem easier to figure out. then again, she had more time to work them out, and it's not her identity that's going on a roller coaster here. ]

[She definitely doesn't want him doing something like that out of guilt. She curls up against him on the bed, holding close.] No. No...I just didn't want this to go like this. I shouldn't have won it. I should have just talked with you then. [Then she would have known the Atroma part was a problem and they could have picked something out at the hotel together since it had shops for things like that. Or she could have just put it out of her mind.]

I'm sorry you had to find it like that.

Kitty | OTA

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[Kurt]

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