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[He gives Winn's shoulder a light squeeze. Who knows where the bruises are under that shirt.] You deserve it. And if anyone can figure out a way to get Kitty back to National City, it's you.

[ not there, fortunately, and he spares mon-el a quick smile. ]

You know it. [ he's getting her back if it kills him. ]

[Mon-El will do whatever he can to make sure it doesn't come to the dying part.]

So, why didn't you ask her to go with you for the ammo run?

She's all for me learning to defend myself, but less into the reminders that I have a dangerous job now.

[ plus, while mon-el has powers he feels more on equal footing with him just by virtue of his attitude. and - he doesn't like the idea of leading kitty into danger. she's done enough fighting in her life. ]

Back to that worrying thing. So, does that mean all of this is a secret?

No I just...prefer to go with you. That's okay, right? I can, take you back otherwise, and ask someone else -

Hey, I am happy to go. I just wanted to make sure I didn't mess anything up if I ran into her. The more hanging out time the better.

I try not to do the secret thing with her. Or with anyone, I hate secrets.

[ keeping guardian a secret again is hard enough, he doesn't need any more. ]

All they do is make me anxious, and they always end up blowing up in your face.

Um...yeah. I've been told they do that a lot here especially. Like those rumors that came out. [Thinking of the break he and Kara were on because of the Natasha secret which he'd really never meant as a secret, and yet that's how it felt to Kara. But there is a real secret that he can't quite let go of.

Yeah - or compulsion glitches, those are great. [ dripping with sarcasm ] No better way to reveal a secret you're nervous about than compulsively blurt it out to anyone you come across.

Did that happen to you?

Yeah, and it sucked. Take my word for it - if you have any secrets, tell Kara before the Atroma do it for you.

Is that what you've done? [He's glad Winn has flying to focus on instead of his face because it is probably saying too much.]

Nope, but I'm a coward. Don't be me.

[ actually, he still hasn't told kara. ]

I don't think I'm winning any awards for bravery anytime soon.

[ he glances his way again. ]

Why do you say that?

Well, I'm no Kara, right? [Smiling because nothing is serious here. No worries! No thoughts about being a secret prince!]

So? Only Kara is Kara. Not being Kara doesn't mean not being brave.

Are you saying you think I'm brave?

Pft, I'm saying I know you are.

I think I heard you wrong. It sounded like you said you know I am.

No, that's what I said.

[ he frowns at him ]

Okay - what is going on with you?

Nothing. Why do you think something is going on with me?

Could have something to do with you being weird. Come on, man, you can talk to me.

........There might be things I mislead you all about on my life in Daxam.

[And he both wants to tell so that isn't some secret revealed out from under him, but he also wants to leave it in his past and never think about it again. It shouldn't matter anymore, right? Except it might matter. What if he loses everything over it? Is it worth that kind of risk just to not have it hanging over him?]