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Who: Loki
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: On the moon initially, but he'll be back to the Paisley soon, and probably on the Iskaulit
When: June 5 (ends June 12)

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[Video starts with... that sure is Loki. But there's something subtly weird about his expression. There's nothing guarded or calculated about it, a slight relaxation of ever-present tension that was never apparent before, perhaps. The best poker face in all Nine Realms is nowhere to be seen. If anything, he looks upset. Confused, worried, a bit scared. And he's out in the forest on the toxic moon, which is just great, let him tell you. No mask, but he's never needed one before, not that he's aware of that, or of the fact that most people have to wear them.]

Hello? Yes, this seems to be working. What a curious device. [Anyway. The point.]

I seem to be lost. Very lost. Where is this?

[A view of the forest, brief but steady.]

And--[Careful breath.]--who am I?

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[Lucky Loki, his augment has glitched and while he remembers how to do things--and the occasional esoteric fact--he has no idea who he is. Good news--or bad news depending on your opinion of his usual space asshole personality--he'll get over it in about a week.

Even if no one comes find him, he'll make his way back to civilization eventually and be very confused about life and where he's even supposed to be. Good thing he's practically indestructible. But eventually, he will be around on the Paisley, and on the Iskaulit, poking about.]

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Do I, if I am a toy that will soon wind down to nothing and vanish?

I am angry-- [And he is, he realizes. When did that happen?] I am angry that no one will tell me anything bloody useful, and I am angry at my own utter uselessness.

Perhaps I have learned something of myself. I do not like to be the butt of a joke I do not understand.

[ He shakes his head. ]

You assume there is a joke. But you have looked upon their faces, Loki. Do any of them seem like they wish to laugh?

I do not you will vanish. I believe . . . that your experiences with merge with your older self. What you have now, what you learn now, is also valuable.

[ He sighs again, tired. He is bone-weary. He has nothing else to give. Leto cannot break his rules. And yet, here he is. As if he is in any way necessary or needed.

Bi-la kaifa. He chose this. He'll reap it. ]

I assume that this has been done to me for a purpose. [No, they just look at him as if he's some sort of curious animal. It doesn't feel much nicer.]

If my... older self has been about here, I imagine I will learn many things he already knows. [Though he does feel bad at the sound of that sigh. A useless conversation, and all it's done is make him cranky and apparently left Leto feeling put upon.

In this state, he's far more willing to empathize because he has no reason to talk himself out of it. On top of being ignorant, then, perhaps he's a bother. It seems unfair, because he didn't ask to be so, at least he doesn't think he did. On the other hand, he doubts anyone has asked to deal with his unending stream of questions, either.

So finally:] I am sorry to have caused you grief.

If it is, it is a cruel one. And not one any would wish upon you. If your older self was here, he could learn from you as well.

[ Leto shakes his head, a rueful smile. ] You have not. To be here for you is enough. It was my decision. I can only hope it matters to you. And wish that it continues to do good.

Is that so? I have been told I have enemies. I am still trying to puzzle that out.

[Snort.] What could anyone possibly learn from me?

[He's only talked to a very few people before now, but no one has said anything at all like this. Softly:] Why?

Even enemies do not always wish for cruelty.

[ Though that was not the best bombshell to drop. ]

Curiosity. The fulfillment of a new experience. To see the world with opened eyes, ones weary people cannot use. To question what is standard. To break the mold.

[ Leto considers his words. ] You have my heart.

All right. [He has to assume that Leto knows more about these supposed enemies than he, so he will believe him.] Though I then wonder what I have done, to have enemies at all.

[Are these all things he has that this older self does not? It seems a rather distressing list in that light, and he's not certain what to say about it.

Of course, any more probing he might have done on that topic is completely derailed by the next answer. He doesn't have his natural poker face any more; it startles him into a swift little intake of breath, though a quite one. It seems an important thing. Though as he turns those words in his mind, he concludes that Leto also must mean this supposed older self of his.] Is that why you have spoken so?

We all have enemies. There is no one who lives without them.

[ He's quiet before speaking. ]

No and yes. I would have spoken so even without knowing him.

[He'll file that piece of information about enemies away under things he's learned. He ought to ask Ahsoka who her enemies are, perhaps.

But this... what to make of this. Love is still a very abstract concept to him. He has approached everyone with a rather open heart and mind because he doesn't know any better, but he knows that isn't the same thing.]

Oh. You must know him very well. [And then he wonders, what it must be like to feel that way about someone and then have them replaced by... a fool who knows nothing, really. ] I am sorry.

[ Susan didn't know, but Susan wasn't a Loki he had fallen in love with. She would never remember because she wasn't the one who led him into the fields and rescued his soul. ]

What are you sorry for?

[He shrugs, faintly.] Because he is gone and I am here in his stead.

[ He frowns lightly. People don't always understand this aspect of Leto's love. ]

You are still him. Why would my love change?

I know nothing that he knew. I would think I am but a hollow shell off him

Knowledge is only a smart part of who we. You are not hollow.

[One hand curls into a loose fist over his heart.] I feel empty.

[He has begun to encompass how little he actually knows.] What else is there?

[ Leto nods. He had felt the same way, in the past. There's little that can absolve it, only time. And time is scarce. ]

A great many things that will bloom.

Will you let me know you as he does?

[ He smiles. ]

Of course. It is all yours.

[It feels very... big, somehow, and important, but he has no idea how to proceed. How do you come to know someone? Ask them more questions, he supposes. Listen to them. And so far, Leto's been the one to speak most deeply with him, and recognize that while he might be Loki in a technical sense, he certainly feels like someone entirely different.

Turning in circles in his own head isn't going to accomplish anything, he decides. Leto already has the full measure of his ignorance. But he still hesitates slightly before he reaches to take one of Leto's hands. That seems a thing to know as well, just what the feels like.]

Will you laugh, for I don't know how to go about doing so?

[ Leto tilts his head, bringing Loki's knuckles to his lips and pressing a chaste kiss to them. ]

Why would I?

[For him, that's the first time he's ever experienced any sort of kiss. It's startling, for all that it seems innocuous. He licks his lips.]

Why wouldn't you?

I would not treat this as a joke.

[ Leto softens. ] So why would you think so?

I know not what to think. Not what you might do. Is that not what has brought us to this point? [This is a complete unknown.]

True. Which is why I'm allowing you to explore your options.

[He smiles crookedly.] But at some point when I have made a choice, you must react in some more definitive way or I'll never cease to be confused.

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