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Kitty Pryde ([personal profile] passingthrough) wrote in [community profile] driftfleet2016-11-15 07:33 pm

Windrose Mingle - November

Who: Windrose crew and the people who stalk them
Broadcast: Probably not!
Action: Windrose
When: November

[It's been a month of loss for the Windrose. We've lost Ordis, Tenno, and now our captain The Vision. We could probably use some visitors and ship togetherness.]
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[personal profile] winn 2016-11-30 08:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he chuckles softly and kisses the top of her head. ]

I'm kind of on a feminism-streak with her, so I'm trying to stay on theme.

[ which is sometimes awkward. he's not always sure what to say, but that's partly why he enlisted kara to the cause of teaching her. ]
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[personal profile] winn 2016-11-30 08:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Only when the girl's hot.

[ he does try, though it never feels like enough. ]

Worst case scenario I'll brainstorm with Kara again. It's a pretty great worst case scenario, I wish all of them were 'hang out with best friend'. What a world that'd be.
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[personal profile] winn 2016-11-30 08:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Feminism's about equality so if mine goes yours goes first.

[ moving his hand to stroke her hair, he takes a quiet deep breath. ]

Hey, that sounds like a worst case scenario to me, so it couldn't exist in a hang-out-with-your-best-friend-is-the-worst-case-scenario verse.
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[personal profile] winn 2016-11-30 08:52 pm (UTC)(link)
It's both, isn't it.

[ he reaches the hand that isn't playing with her hair to scratch his chin, and shakes his head slowly with a sigh. ]

Not your thing? [ it's not really his thing either, when he woke up to facial hair after his coma getting rid of it was one of the first items on his to-do list. ]
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[personal profile] winn 2016-11-30 08:59 pm (UTC)(link)
God no. [ that sounds like a pain in the...face. and he also doubts he'll pull it off. ] I just can't bring myself to shave it.

[ which is dumb, but that's where he is right now. the atroma was dumb first, ok! they started it! ]
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[personal profile] winn 2016-11-30 09:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he sighs. it all feels so distant, so much time was lost because he just couldn't...because he wasn't stronger. because he wasn't a hero. ]

Sascha and I had this game - we were pirates. And he named me Captain Nobeard.

[ and now sascha's gone and he doesn't want to be nobeard anymore even though he doesn't want a beard, either. ]
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[personal profile] winn 2016-11-30 09:17 pm (UTC)(link)
I know.

[ he squeezes in return and kisses the top of her head. he didn't get to make things all the way right with sascha, it's not fair. yeah, he was seeing him again, he gave him a bear and they were talking, but he wasn't being the big brother he was supposed to be and that's how it ended and now he may never get the chance to be that again and it's making him want to latch onto margaery all the more, because now she's the only little sibling he has left and he doesn't want to feel this way ever again.

he failed sascha and now he's gone and nothing could take that pain away. ]
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[personal profile] winn 2016-12-01 08:14 am (UTC)(link)
[ he never wanted that, never wanted him distanced from anyone except himself at the times he couldn't handle him. somehow, he never managed to make him understand that he shouldn't shut himself in, that all he was asking for was a head's up before he comes to the tourist on windrose so he wouldn't have a heart attack walking down the hall, or that he could decide to leave if he wasn't up for it - not that he never go anywhere at all. but that's what he ended up doing, and it was in his name, and he didn't do enough to stop it, and he's guilt ridden, and it frustrates the hell out of him because he knows that had it been anyone else in his shoes - he would've told them to cut themselves some slack, they almost died! there's only so much concern you can show for the person who almost killed you when you're dealing with that trauma. any at all is impressive.

but not when it comes from him. he feels like a failure, like he doesn't deserve kitty's comfort. does she blame him, the way he blames himself? does she resent him now, for depriving her of those last few months with sascha, even though he did his damndest to never tell her not to go, even when he didn't want her to? is she going to grow to hate him now, will he lose her too - not to the atroma, but to his own cowardice?

it shouldn't have been him. no, no it shouldn't have been. it should have been someone who wants to go home or, at the very least, someone whose home is as good if not better than the fleet. ]


Maybe he's somewhere better. [ oh god, that makes it sound like he's dead. a shudder runs down his spine. ] I mean -- you know that kidnappy place where you snuggle - I hope he's there.
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[personal profile] winn 2016-12-01 03:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he holds her as tight as he can, resting his chin against the top of her head. ]

I'm glad it wasn't you too.

[ he could deal with losing most people - it'd hurt, but he could at least comfort himself that they might be happier. that they're back where they belong.

kitty doesn't have a place to belong to anymore. if she disappears, it's either to another one of these worlds, or to death. and that...that tightens his throat and his chest and his arms around her. he doesn't want to think about it but how can he not? ]
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[personal profile] winn 2016-12-01 03:23 pm (UTC)(link)
I love you too.

[ seeing her so close to tears almost pushes him over the edge himself. by the end of this, the atroma may actually turn him into his father because right now he feels so much added hatred for them he might do more than just not feel bad should they die. ]
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[personal profile] winn 2016-12-01 03:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Sure.

[ getting up is a somewhat slow process, because he's not ready to let go of her quite yet. ]
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[personal profile] winn 2016-12-01 06:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[ alas, he hasn't been working out that much.

he wraps his arms around her instantly.

oh. it's sweet, but it also hurts. a room. because they're constantly here. will they ever be able to go back to the tourist? he has no right to talk, his fear of shuttling at the beginning and of sascha later kept them on the tourist long, but still he misses it, misses his friends, his nighttime activities there. ]


Think there has to be a transfer for that. [ and there have been so few new arrivals. ]

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