Sora Niniji (AU) (
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driftfleet2016-06-23 02:41 am
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- fenris,
- finn,
- hank mccoy,
- james buchanan barnes (ou),
- jon snow,
- kara danvers,
- katherine "kitty" pryde,
- kaworu nagisa,
- kazuto "kirito" kirigaya,
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- sora niniji (au),
- sorey,
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- theon greyjoy,
- tony stark,
- tyrion lannister,
- vash the stampede,
- winn schott,
- wrath,
- zhas
Let's all hold hands and sing Kumbaya
Who: Everybody! It's a planet mingle!
Broadcast: If You want!
Action: On the Holding Hands plant!
When: From June 23 until whenever we need a new mingle.
[At long last, the fleet has arrived to a new planet. This means it's time for a mingle guys! Get in! ]
Broadcast: If You want!
Action: On the Holding Hands plant!
When: From June 23 until whenever we need a new mingle.
[At long last, the fleet has arrived to a new planet. This means it's time for a mingle guys! Get in! ]
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Kitty...it's really not the same. I'm fine - bullies are practically a right of passage for my kind.
[ of course, his nerdiness might've been able to skate by most of them if he weren't the son of a murderer, if that label hadn't followed him around every day at school and every night at home, if he had a single safe space to hide in. but that doesn't matter - at the end of the day all it is was bullying. he's alive, barely even physically dented anymore, just a chink on chin like scratch in the paint. so he lost his parents. he's hardly the first kid to, he lived with a houseful of others. to him, comparing it to what kitty's been through is like going crying to wrath with a paper cut.
it's not hurt he's projecting anymore, not mainly. he's a little bitter about feeling this way, and very guilty - for both feelings. he's also extremely self deprecating. ever since his mom left all the way up until he left for college - all he's ever heard was you have no right. the memories don't come up, just the ingrained sensation. ]
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[She doesn't want to compare and contrast. And she doesn't bring it up with words, but it's hard for thoughts not to bubble up of memories where she would rescue people and be spat on for being a "filthy mutie." That was almost the best scenario. It hurt more to see people just shaking in fear around her—to know she was the monster in their nightmares when she was risking her life to make the world better for them. For everyone. There were exceptions—thank yous, hugs, or even simple neutral responses from people too weak and weary for anything more. But they felt slim in comparison.
She isn't thinking this outranks what happened to Winn in any way. For her it just makes her feel more connected to him. Like they have all this potential to just better understand each other on a deeper level which is something she craves. She loves him, but sometimes things feel almost shallow? Like she doesn't know him the way she would like to know him. And it's okay. Things are still new and it takes time.]
You have every right to your feelings.
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I'm sorry, Kitty I just... [ he hates that she knows what it feels like, to be told you don't matter, that the world would be better off without her. but she had the x-men to go back to, to build her back up. nobody's ever rebuilt him, because he's never allowed anyone to see how broken he is inside. smile, though your heart is aching, smile, even though it’s breaking. that has been his motto.
he always wanted someone to know him - but also didn't. he wants the real him to be the happy-go-lucky excitable guy who's always quick to help, not the bitter broken mess. ]
Hey - [ he gently strokes her hair and smiles at her ] remember that inn? It's waiting for us, along with the dinner we deserve. [ he just wants to be someone who makes her happy, not hurt even more. so many people have made her hurt in her life. he hates himself for being one of them, even if it's what she wants. ]
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...But yeah. The inn sounds good.
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[ he steps back from the embrace - so they could resume their walking, so he doesn't add an edge to that joke that - while true - he doesn't want her to sense, and so she doesn't feel how deep his resentment for reid runs. ]
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I stopped your daily compliments too soon.
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Kitty...[ he softens in the face of her distress. it's not a time for jokes, much as he wants to make them to get her to smile - if he could just make her smile, then everything will be alright, right? ]
When you say you love me - that's the biggest compliment anyone could ever give me.
[ it's not her fault, is what he's trying to convey. she's so wonderful to him, he still can't believe she's even with him. ]
Come on - let's go have dinner. This'll feel a lot better with pie.
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Yeah, okay.
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Is there really going to be pie? [Sorry, Winn. It's just. That's pretty huge news.]
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When I said dessert, I didn't mean me.
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[ she gets a gentle sort of look back that's also a little flustered because he can't get over how amazing it feels to be desired. he's a little apprehensive, but when they were kissing everything they were feeling was amazing. when he's kissing her, he can't really think about anything else but her. so it'll be alright...probably. he hopes. ]
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You know I want to talk more about...all of that eventually, right? [But they can have their break. Their meal. Their sweet exchanges and banter. It just needs to happen too.]
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[ his smile softens, and there's unclear in his eyes - because his heart is uncertain. he doesn't know how he feels about this. ok - he's happy she cares, absolutely, but he's also afraid of this conversation, sad that - the happy-go-lucky days are nothing but a fond memory now. ]
I know. And I love you for it. [ he also loves her for letting the date night he planned happen first. he was really excited for it, he doesn't want it ruined because he couldn't control his memories. ]
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And so much pie before that. I am really excited about the inn, Winn. ...Wow, that sounds weird together.
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To the inn with Winn wherein the fun will begin. [ there he made it weirder. ]
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[ there's always that knee-jerk pump of insecurity every time she mentions someone new, especially a man someone. he knows she loves him, now better than ever, and he trusts her - with his heart and his life. but that fear that he isn't good enough, isn't man enough, is not one he can just shake off. he keeps his voice casual, the touch of his hand may betray a little more. ]
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[ she called it the first time they talked: he talks a lot when he's nervous. ]
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Movie night sounds good. Are things going well with Wrath? [He seemed kind of quiet and flustered when the three of them were together.]
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[ he does feel it, and it helps. ]
Yeah, yeah I think so. I think we found our groove. [ when they talk about the here and now and not her world - she's not terrifying anymore. she's actually a lot of fun. and...they have more in common than he initially thought. it seems like they both don't really see the value in themselves beyond their work. there's sadness there, but also a sense of kinship. he knows the things he disagrees with are far from gone, but things suck hard enough without forcing issues that aren't coming up on their own into their lives. ]
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I'm glad. I think I'm getting to understand her better too. She has a way of keeping a person off balance. [Not in a bad way, but she didn't know what to expect from her or how sincere she was being. And sincerity is important to Kitty. She doesn't like being lied to or manipulated. Not that anyone likes those things but she's especially on guard after Piotr.]
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[ why are you ruining pizza, kitty, what has he ever done to you? ]
She does but...she's also really sweet.
[ the talk they had at the medbay actually went a long way to boost his self esteem - there's just something about being told that he's good, and worthwhile, and tough by someone so blunt who has absolutely no stake in complimenting him unnecessarily because what is he to her, really?
his grip on her hand tightens a little bit as those feelings go through. I'll never do that to you, is the sentiment he focuses on. he knows it's not about him - not this time - but he can't control the actions of anyone else but himself. ]
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Hey, I know you wouldn't. Even when you hold things back I know it's not me. [Sometimes it feels like her though even if she knows logically it isn't. She's worried he doesn't trust her enough to tell her the things on his mind. And worried that she's given him reasons for that by saying stupid, thoughtless things around him. By teasing him or flirting with people without intentions.]
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Here we are -
[ he opens the door to the inn and kisses the top of her head. smiling at the owner, he gives them a little nod and leads her back to their room. ]
Hang on - close your eyes for a sec - [ he'll quickly light a pair of candles on the little dinner table he had set up for them in the room, and then lead her inside and shut the door behind them. ]
Ok, open.
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Want to just deal with a couple recapchas and finish it here?
sure
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